Lynn

As if things never has changed...

2011-12-27T22:07:00.000-08:00

Is year 2012.....soon.

Living on this planet for like 18 years, and year 2011 would be the year I will never wanna be experienced again. A year filled with tragedy, anger, phobia, disappointment, failure, depression, losing dignity, forgot where I belong, passion lost, no dreams no hope no future & etc. Back to when I was 17, things was so simple. I never know how life could turned out to be so dramatic after my high school life, which supposed to be a sweet-turning-teenage age.

Undeniable, all these have broaden my mind. How I can see things without much expectation; how to take life easily; how to have big dreams and start with small; how to appreciate every single friend; how to love more, give more, expect less.

I think I've grown up and no longer the kid you've known. No worries, I will live the life I want.

p/s: get me a boyf like Timothy!! I mean errr.. a lengzai-er version one thankiu. LOL.

To whom it may concern

2011-11-18T01:00:00.000-08:00

你好吗？

HI.

2011-09-07T00:23:00.000-07:00

I own a blog, I blogged everyday on what I did where I went. I blogged my happy moments. I blogged my truest feelings. I grew up. Adult life take over. Sadness added in bit by bit. I stress I blog still, but has become lesser and lesser. I'm lazy. I own a tumblr. I realize I post =( thing more than =).

I'm lost.

协议分手

2011-07-20T23:18:00.000-07:00

什么叫协议？什么叫不应该单方面做决定？分手时刻，总会先有一个人提出吧？酱就是单方面做决定？提出了，另一个人也接受了，酱就叫协议？

什么屁话。

所以分手最好的方式是？

最好就不要分、继续拖拖拉拉一辈子。酱就不会有人敢讲‘你一个人做决定’这些屁话。

2011-07-10T20:16:00.001-07:00

Oh? Anyone else still blogging? I've got tumblr and Im' lovin it! :D

2011-03-28T18:40:00.000-07:00

揾食艰难，不是开玩笑。有压力到一个地步。不过还是很开心的活着。那天去散步，看到很多人手里拿着面包喂鱼。其中有一个小孩子在爸爸的怀里也学着别人一样把面包丢进湖里。tapi, 死命丢面包屑还是只掉到鱼吃不到的地方：湖的边缘。突然觉得，如果我是那位爸爸，我应该会死命教他把面包屑丢远一点，不然会浪费掉。But，其实我们没有想过以一个小孩子来讲，其实他是志在丢面包过一下瘾jek，哪里会想酱多。

想回到初衷，那个心有一团火，虽然偶尔横冲直撞，偶尔单纯，但不失那份勇敢的，颜佩菱。

我过得很好，加油。 =)

you got to really understand why am i posting this.

2011-03-21T22:19:00.000-07:00

"A wise man once sat in the audience and cracked a joke. Everybody laughs like crazy. After a moment, he cracked the same joke again, less people laughed. He cracked the same joke again and again, when there was no laughter, he smiled and said: you cant laugh about the same joke again and again, then why are you crying over the same thing over and over again?"

out of so random

2011-03-21T20:21:00.000-07:00

You ask what's the feelings of getting the result soon?
Oh man what are you asking.

I am still the same. I always try to escape reality when pressure comes. Even can leave the office like that after lunch because Im not feeling good for the whole morning. Cannot believe I sat there for 4 hours doing nothing.
Wondering will I someday decided to go somewhere further alone and out of sudden.

Amen.

2011-02-15T00:31:00.000-08:00

why.make.me.confused.

Now you're not standing with me when I finally make my mind clear and come out with one decision. You make me sad. More saddening than what's happening. I'm sorry i chose the wrong person to blurt out everything then. I don't even need your comfort words. What's bothering you now.

Now I can't stop scolding myself why I didn't choose to continue and become the locker! why.why.why. fcuk.

2011-02-14T01:20:00.000-08:00

A day has passed. 60 minutes for 24 hours.

It's true. I can't keep telling myself. This world is so damn cute. How funny were we to think we can fit into another person. How tiny we were thinking to change one man's mind and attitude. All I can see is they're so tiring trying to match the person whom they love. I only knew time can heals the pain, but can it really change one person behavior and belief. I wonder. I doubt.

Should i be more complicated to fit this society, or to act innocent to prove everything is not acting that fcuking way. Should i go with feelings, or go with the flow. Because is too hard to deny everything has never changed..

Happy single valentine's day. :)

HAPPY wtf. :D

2011-02-11T06:35:00.000-08:00

I am too happy. TOOOOOOOO happy to write my happiness wtf.

Ahem. Talking to Debbie is my all-time-favourite. :) Even though by words..that's enough! Already writting like an essay..how many hours will we spend if we meet up one day? :D
HAHAHAH great day man. really. Have been so long I never feel so relaxing. But I guess february is the only month left I can do whatever i want. It's time to pick up pieces of this life. :)

Begining of the year 2011 doesn't seems to be a good start for me. Too many things happen. To many things faded. Too many promises broken. To many people changed. Too many lies to be covered. How ugly. and I'm too afraid to look back the diary..reminded me how pityful my days were. And the saddest part is, it used to remind me the moment when I smiled.

Life doesn't stop for anybody. Yeah. So instead of crying the heart out every pityful moment, just stay happy la! Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect, it means we've decided to look beyond imperfections. woo, so philosophy.

Conclusionly. I am happy now. with everything. :)

happiness wanted.

2011-01-20T17:45:00.000-08:00

I just can't get myself an answer. How you expect me to give you one. :(

I can be happier, if you decided to let me GO.

Segamat.one.day.trip.

2011-01-16T01:39:00.000-08:00

very SONG la what else.

The only people i familiar with in this trip was the photographer. :D

Too enjoying. Beyond words.

D.E.R.I.T

2011-01-14T01:03:00.000-08:00

I rather lose the world. You might see me standing strong..I just got no one to share with.

Like why stopping me back to innocent ones and my comfort zone. Why the happiness can be destroyed in minutes. Why trust and promises between us can be broken by their words. Why i can't defend. Why am I so afraid that things will gone worse and that's all we'll ever be. Who sees I tried? Who knows i make effort so hard to remain everything. Who understands why i pushing the most caring ones away? Who knows i need to cry. Who cares I am alone. Who knows in the middle of the night i asked myself am i doing the right thing and having the right thought. Who wants to know how hard for me to live on now.

2011-01-08T22:04:00.000-08:00

Forbidden to remember. terrified to forget. It was a hard line to walk. Why don't you understand. I did sacrifice. I get hurt. I thought you heard the unspoken ones.

2011

2011-01-04T18:59:00.000-08:00

It's not like i've neglected this page. But haih. every time when i click on ' new post' i have nothing to write.

How am i suppose to write things that hide inside me when i can't even tell to the ones that i trusted most. I know why peoples getting emo when they graduate from high school because when your friends are all busy working/study/finding rich guy to get married and they have no time for you and you'll like old lady who having PMS. poor thing.

At least back to few months time, there's someone in school always wanna talk to you and ready to give you advise. and help you to analyse what you should and shouldn't do. and back home getting excited again because there'll be new story to tell to share on the next day. Haih. now? forget about it. everyone will be saying I MISS YOU. you decide who's the sincere one then.

I don't miss a particular person like this. I always think about the things that we did together. Days we spent. Moments we shared. and then smile because all this will never come back. I think i prefer my form 5 life more. I think choosing a right person sitting beside you is super important hahha.

I don't want sports day. I never want to wear st john's uniform again. I don't want to see Miss Goh again!
I miss Debbie. I miss yeeshan sitting behind using her stupid glue drawing on the table and my hair got sticked. I miss the time so busy for st John's stuff . I miss Meifang standing outside my class and i'll sneak out from the class and go recess earlier with her. I miss the left-not-much-time recess because i left so many undone stuff with Puan chang. I miss staying back with Rene for studies but actually we're just talking and doing nothing. I miss calling the junior AH BAOOOO heee. I miss the FRIM with competitors! I miss outing with classmates. I miss talking poor malay and they laugh at me..I miss xiao Qian destroying the image of the person in FOKUS magazine hahhaha. :D

wtf

2010-12-08T02:26:00.000-08:00

YA I FINISHED ASS-PEE-AIM AND SO WHAT LA I HAVE NOTHING TO UPDATE BECAUSE THE FEELING STILL SUCKS LIKE HELL.

yawn, finally it's over anyway.

2010-11-21T00:46:00.000-08:00

Every time you walked away, a part of me dies.

Why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?

Thank you for the 366th. ILY

2010-11-17T22:26:00.000-08:00

我已经无能为力
无法抗拒无路可退
这无声的夜现在的我
需要人陪

世界

2010-11-15T02:41:00.001-08:00

沉默是一种回音
来自你很深的心底
重复著我要离去我要离去
可是我不想伤害你
微笑是一种逃避
来自我很深的爱情
假装著没有问题没有问题
我们一定能撑过去
原来爱情的世界很大
大的可以装下一百种委屈
原来爱情的世界很小
小到三个人就挤到窒息
原来爱情的世界很大
塞了多少幸福还是有空虚
原来爱情的世界很小
被一脚踩过就变成废墟

WHY

2010-11-10T01:33:00.000-08:00

Why can't you read me anymore like you did last time.

I need you.

没爱好难过，有爱算什么

我恨我

我不知道我想要什么

2010-10-30T13:36:00.000-07:00

You are missed.

Stop crying your heart out

2010-10-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

I skipped school today.

Just because i can't sleep the night before, and things started to run in my mind. So i decided to get out of this and be alone for a day. I had never try this. And i gained a lot.

I observed everyone around me. I took the train and reached Midvalley at 12pm. I walked very slow from the station to the mall. I realised i never have this relax walk ever. Peoples around me walked very fast to catch up works or friends. I bought myself a movie ticket at 4pm and entered Kiku-Zakura, ordered refillable green tea and study for 3 hours. I know nothing goes into my brain. What's bothering me?
I ate chawanmushi and Unagi Temaki for lunch. I fed myself chicken meatball and i enjoy my movie,alone sitting with people i unfamiliar with. I thought i will like this. I thought it's cool to be alone. I thought I'll be happy. But wrong. Wrong hypothesis. I started to feel lonely. Started to think how nice if someone just right beside me.

Eat pray love.
A good movie which really reflected my mood and things i wanna do. I teared inside there and i truly feel the pain on my left chest.
For so long. I close my ears whenever i don't wanna listen, and i close my left eyes because I'm blind on the right. But could someone please teach me, how not to feel anything. How to close the bloody heart. the feelings. the mind.

Noo. I bukan sat luen.
I have a very supportive family. I loveee my mom. She gave me the maximum freedom. She didn't ask much and threw me to the train station and never call me for the whole day because she knew i need some time for my own. She is the cutest mom ever. She treated me ice blended chocolate on the day i told her I got so fed up because I've tried for 2 years but i still failed my add math exam again.

I left many undone stuffs.
I got to get my passport. Get my license. Buy my ideal camera. The ideal phone. The overseas Christmas and Newyear. and needless to say, finish ASSPEEM asap. please.

无言

2010-10-17T15:34:00.000-07:00

Am i really doing the right thing again.
haihhhh.

"HEY YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING NOWWWW"
OWH-KAYYYY.

你喜欢自甘堕落你就继续，我不会管你闲事。

10/10/10 AH SO?

2010-10-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Sorry for mixed feelings that I had these day. The mood swings and hormones imbalance and ups and down or some awkward emotional one you found in me. I found it's really hard to have a person to talk with when you have confusion in life. Ommit the talking part, even a listener is hardly to find. fml.

I've cut my hair short. REALLY SHORT!! IT'S MORE THAN 5CM!! -______________-
lols.

I have no heart to study for the last paper damn it. Seriously how am i going to face the fcuking shit ASSPM. My sister went Cameron last week, Penang this weekend and Broga the coming weekend. FUISHEH damn envy and thank god she comes alive, I mean the sporting part. My mom seems emotionally imbalance for that lols. I asked her to close her shop for days and go Singapore shopping or go Kemaman for relaxation purpose or somewhere other state where relatives live and throw all holy shit business behind. (my families everywhere weyy no la. )

Why i only age 17? Why i can't work yet. Why can't drive yet. Why still so young. Why still need parents money for living purpose. WHY STILL HAVE TO STUDY.

FML.

p.s/RENE KOK you better don't give up what you're doing.
ps.s/ I found one very nice outing kaki. heee loves. :D

Noted.

2010-10-09T13:00:00.000-07:00

We all have a lifespan od about 30,000 days. We spend about a third of that time sleeping. That means we have a waking lifespan of about 20,ooo days. Therefore if we have 40 days more before PMR examination and 100 days left before SPM examination OR, 20 days left before we die, What would we do with them?

courage needed

2010-10-04T17:30:00.000-07:00

I care. but damn it you don't seems to realise it.
I believe i don't need to remind this statement everyday, just because i love you.

Courage is needed for something has to be done.

recently.

2010-09-27T14:59:00.000-07:00

Something about life, again.

We live, we did something wrong, we hurt peoples, we apologize, and..we did that again. You might didn't realize but look..this is what we doing again and again without realizing how serious this matter is and how powerful it'll cause to you and eventually the people you love.
You have to know. Sorry seriously means nothing if you never meant it..and most importantly..you never change.

Dear, this person might stupidly accept your apologize for the first time, second time, third time, and maybe till the 55th. But lets have a bet, It won't reach 100th. Love is not a noun, but a verb.

L.O.V.E

2010-09-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

Calling to a familiar number which no one picks up. The feelings core. I don't want to be alone..the feelings doesn't feel good even though I've been practising for years. I don't wanna talk about it how empty deep inside me sometimes even though you gave me everything. I don't want to be emo without any reason i can stated because it's a crime. I can't tell you exactly what is that killing me inside and I've to pretend like the one you familiar with. Thanks for giving me my own little space and freedom when I am not with you, and lending your ears and shoulders because this is all i hope for when i feeling sick. But, when are we going to end this endless dilemma, don't you feel tired too?

It's hormones. It's natural. It's tortured. It's...love.

Written from the average distance, Lynn.

ILY,314th.

夭寿咯。

2010-09-05T14:54:00.000-07:00

Trial falls on 27th September.
要死命啃书，偏偏我又不是那种可以坐diam diam读书的人。

爱西料啦~~

我在想如果我天天用酱烂的华语写blog,会不会有人吐血死掉。walao, 我觉得我先beh tahan死掉。

我是女王♥

2010-08-29T18:36:00.000-07:00

Officially 17.

I have so many things to share! So many things to talk about! So manyyyy and mannny!
I was quite down for my studies when things cant go into my brain, and being so alone sometimes when i thought that I gonna spend my Birthday soooo alone because dearest Meifang ditched me aside on every recess time for the week because of the damn report duty she's gonna do.

And then i tell myself I gonna be happy like nobody's business at least for the DAY.
Started my day with Mich's handmade-edited-photo inside a white photo frame.

And then I went Selayang mall's Popeye with my junior girls. And received this very very cute handmade card and OMG conclusionly i LOVE it so much and so touched luckily didn't tears in front of them. :P

Each one of them wrote mostly like 2 pages like confessing like that and made it like a booklet.Gosh damn sweet tau!

I went Genting theme park the next day in the very early morning. The crowd only started to enter when we're almost finish the whole peak park! :P

This is what i got from her car's boot. This is soft and huge and white and DAMN CUTE LA as first photo shown. :) LOVES! ♥

Dinner at Biz cafe, Mont kiara. So nice to catch up with some close friends awww.

ILY. So nice to fill the night with laughter. :)

Summary after all. The book given by darling Rene and secret recipe's cake. The 24 colors pen from the dearest. The Birthday song task from school's probation prefect given by Meifang. A special (i mean really special) card and present and totoro's the theme from Melt Gan. A family steamboat buffet dinner treated by Penny Gan at Puchong. A BROS bottle from Yeesin and the girlf. Last but not least, the Profile Picture changes my luluians made on Facebook dedicated to me! :) Very surprisingly!!

Simple and sweet. Can't describe much by using words.
Pleasure and treasure.

After Emoness,is time to..?

2010-08-14T21:43:00.000-07:00

OMG this lovely weekend.

I spent my Friday's lunch at Seoul garden One Utama, with dearest lulu girls! I finally get to try this Korean-styled BBQ Buffet restaurant..Food was not that bad with the minimum choices they can give.. I believe i'll be more happier if i get to go for their dinner next time. =) Hope we have a chance! :P

And these awesome people made my Saturday so wonderful!

I never know that we can spent so much time at FRIM! Gosh the waterfall part was pretty nice and i wanna find another day to get myself ALL wet ehhee. :)

:- Everyone started their Journey with the Cola lollipop given by Rene. :) -:

:- This poor thing very excited wanna go for the canopy walk mana tau like tofu walked 5 minutes asking rest for 10 minutes. Beh Tahan. -:

:- And you know how terrified was I to capture photo on this shaky shaky thing? Aww. -:

Waterfall part was superb! Photos say it all!

More photos on FaceBook! :P

Very tired, but FUN. :)

谢谢你

2010-08-02T18:37:00.000-07:00

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

250天的情绪交集。2820分钟的等待。23次的心痛掉泪。9次的强忍泪水。18倍被放大的勇气。
固执得我，不舍得的你。
记忆不可靠，回过神，我已经泪流满面。没有甜蜜，没有你，只有心再抽痛。
我以为自己很坚强，真的可笑。原来，也不过如此。当我觉得，我说再多也是废话。当我，已经失去想要为自己辨解的力气。当我，真的想要放弃维护所有的一切。
然后想起，我们还有很多一起协议但未完成的事情。

谢谢你，我尝过爱的好。

Shall we talk.

2010-07-31T19:53:00.000-07:00

I am going mad, what ya think? :(

Seriously wanna go back to the times when the only decision have to be done is thinking what to show when playing ONE-TO-JUICE.

人总需要勇敢生存
我还是重新许愿
例如学会承受失恋

oh man.

2010-07-22T16:14:00.000-07:00

It's complicated.

That's how you know.

2010-07-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

It's eventually because i was listening this song for the movie Enchanted that's why the title comes.

I have things to share.
I don't know where to start, and I'm trying to stop philosophy happens here. *aww things just getting emo when i continue typing*

I am sick. No, not the physically part, i mean the other way round. Families, Friendship, some random friends..long lost friends..and then the love one. Maybe the only reason I am being so cloudy now instead of saying moody is, I previewed all photos in my computer..and then, feel sad. Indeed, sad was only part of it, I am not sure whether should it be labeled any other else. Life is just so dramatic you know. Yes you knew.

From entering a camp and ended up with gangs of BFF that share laughter to tears, from having one very nice admirer and ended up he is my very best friend now who i can share ups and downs with. From close friends and ended up with strangers to one another before hatred, lies and betrays happened, from joining the coolest uniform body and ended up with the strongest bond in friendship we created. From happily trusted a person and ended up got back stabbing then hurt badly and a lesson learnt from that, from falling to a guy name CML in both of us willingness and ended up seeing he finally has a girlfriend in facebook, from disliking a person and ended up get very close.

From the greatest cousins ever and ended up i break it with my own hands because of my selfishness and unexcused innocent. From having a heart of passion in doing 'service for mankind' but interpersonal relationships ruined it all. From one very close soul mate and ended up we broke up before more winding turns occurred.

I don't like things got mess up after well planned. I don't like endless waiting, for anything. I don't like peoples come to you when only things happen. I don't like peoples who's eye born on the forehead. I don't like to go places where strangers surrounded and i need to be there for the sake of accompanying someone. I don't like to talk to peoples who doesn't respect you no matter how elder you are. I don't like guys who sweet talk especially Pisces.

Now change all DONT LIKE to HATE. :(

Not much thing to talk because i am getting my fcuking report card tomorrow and, Good Night.

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Oh, You don't have to be here seriously if you don't want to. Eh, IS YOU LAH I AM TALKING.

Show Off.

2010-06-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

Yes because i have these cool ones, why not?

Even though we are separated for most of the time..but it doesn't stop each one of us building up strong foundation in our friendship. Because we believe, all of us,did put in effort in this.
It's simple as you can think, the same concept. We want to be with each other all the time and that's it. From up to down, left to right..We wanna spend time together and explore around places we haven't been to. We wanna make memories and left footprints in each other's life.

Compare to so-called-buddies who only working in KL, living near my place, busy complaining how their life been busy all the time, YET updating outing funs with others friend constantly and rejected us every time with the same lame excuses. You're so fake man.
I've learnt not to blame, to stand on your view and then make a conclusion silently in my heart. You just doesn't see and EVER want to change, for emptying a place in your heart, for us.

Needless to say..I love you guys. You got to bear in mind. Seriously, i never felt this way before that we support and tease each other at the same time from Penang to KL. I love the way we were, and I believe we will be there also in the future.

Photos below say it all. In the year we grow together.
Happy Birthday in Advance! and Belated too. :)

Randommm.

2010-06-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

Things to do.

-Save more money. (double sadness)
-Get the Add math's project done asap. (It's not related to SPM anyway)
-Date Yune after OUR exam. (I'm not sure she's having any exam now but maybe)
-Stay at home more even though it's bored. (Going out makes me stress now lol)
-Spend time equally for both curriculum and academic. ( Many things to stress on..both.)
-Score as many A's as i can. (This year is much better than last year exp Chem and AM,sob. )
-Lose weight. (as much!)
-BE HAPPY. (which is the hardest to achieve till now)

Buh-bye.

Satisfying trip with luluians! ♥

2010-06-07T23:43:00.000-07:00

Our class performance on teacher's day was superb isn't?! The video was done perfectly more than I've expected man! With subtitle some more! It was really a great day and memories created in our heart for Sc2's students..I pray inside my heart that luckily I did not choose to skip school HAHAH so mean!

:- Before the performance with all Chinese. Not all of them are here anyway. -:

:- Our dearest musicians -:

:- Debbie and I! Omg 2 weeks time cannot share stories with you and you'll never reply my msg wtf! -:

:- Xiao Qian and I! my all time favourite cam whore kaki HAHA. -:

Anyway After everything ended, I was rushing to Lulu Chan's house to take a bath and ready for the journey. We are heading to Cameron Highlands and WE WERE COMPLETE THIS TIME wooo! This was our first ever formal Luluian's trip with full attendance so touching wtf!

:- I am too glad to bring my LUILUI along and meet my dearest luluians but they failed to make her happy by keep calling her FEI BO! :( -:

We had steamboat for dinner after we've reach because it's already evening. After that we went and have a walk at the night market before going back to hotel. The first night was ordinary because it's kinda tired. We stayed at the hotel and enjoy movie 'knowing' with white wine! Again i said, i was alert, not drunk.

Day 2 we only woke up at 9am plus and get out of the room at 10am plus after everyone done. Basically i don't really remember what we've visited because is Public Holiday man! It's so freaking jam everywhere and we stayed in the car more than jalan-jalan. :P

:- Who said Cameron is windy therefore we will not get sun burn! It's hot peoples, as you can see! -:

:- This was taken when we heading to Strawberry's thingy. I got very addicted with waffle now after I've tried theirs. I never really enjoy waffle for 16 years until this time comes you know. :P -:

Flowers are so damn nice you know i can't stop looking even though is true i don't like roses. :D

:- I only anti roses laa but I don't mind seeing roses man. When we heading to Rose farm and knew that we gonna pay for the entrance, my dear luluians refuse to pay because they want to save money for foods wtf so ended up i don't get to see many many roses. -:

:- With camera, Of course lah we want to snap photos until the camera no battery or the lens burst of our beauties HAHAH kidding. :P
The saddest part was i forgot to bring my tripod if not there will be more photos in the album. -:

:- This photo sangat ade feeeel isn't?! I clap for myself HAHAH. This was taken at the 'Boh tea' with super nice view..And if you are gonna view my album in facebook, do take note that there's less Ah Sua's photo because he was busy sketching at that moment. -:

Poor Lulu Chan have exam on Monday that's why when Ah Sua was online with iphone, Yanyan started singing 'touch my body~' after she got drunk, MML and I was sitting near balcony and that's what she was doing..

♥ Always the same, sweetness in my heart.♥

29th of May, ILY.

2010-05-30T19:59:00.000-07:00

Hello A-veli-bardy.

I were busy for something but i feel nothing yet I can really feel that I'm living! Since I have nothing else to update HAHAH is time to show off my busy weekend again. :)

This public holiday I've been helping out at my Second home - Qi yuan for Wesak Day. The feeling of going home is nice and sweet especially when we guys gathered around like siblings talking what we were doing lately after the crowd gone lesser. Even though most of us are very tired but i do believe that everyone of us are happy that we spent a little time together this day. ♥
I know darling yeoh you definitely cannot feel this and you missed out the chance to get updates from everyone of us! If you are reading this i hope you know how depressed we were to burn your house wtf! (sorry la uncle and auntie but i have no idea why your daughter can just disappear in this world like nobodies business. Is she still alive anyway?)

:- WANTED! -:

And Saturday was another SUPERB day!
In the morning we reach at nearly 12pm and started our day here at this super expensive Japanese restaurant. Seriously i have no idea how we walked in and got really shocked after we've read the menu. (grr i should take photos for the price!)

:- This is taken when you have nothing else to do while waiting for foods to be served and when this human eye lashes made me very depressed..and i am trying to take some artistic photo hehee. -:

:- This little unagi thingy cost RM9 already which is much much higher than normal price!But seriously it tasted more better than I've tried. :) -:

We hang out at Mid-Valley for like freaking 6 hours to search for gifts for May's Birthday girl, dearest Lulu Hor. We seriously have no idea what to buy (as usual la) so we decided simply jalan-jalan and think hardly what she needs..and *tink* We bought her BROS bottle which is blue in color i pray hard that's her favorite's one! FYI, i super love the design ler, you must appreciate ler and lend it to me sometimes la HAHAHA. :) *sharing itu caring mar. :P*

And we headed to Korean food restaurant located at Desapark City and the other 2 lulus of mine were late for half and hours like wtf. But the night ended up great because you guys never fail to entertain me babe! <3 style="font-style: italic;">new Kepong area and have some drinks..okay..is..alcohol one i meant. FYI again, this was....Lulu Chan idea because she wants to drink alcohol desperately! *point point* :P We shared anyway with 1 pint for 2 humans.

:- I have no idea what is these called because i didn't know i will blog about this so who cares to remember the name wtf buahaha. :P -:

:- This is belated Birthday cake for the girl you saw on the above hee. And then i realise we were always late to celebrate her birthday mostly like end of May because don't know laa every year also timing not match punya wor. -:

:- This Bday girl sat opposite of me and we were too lazy to move for photo section so TA-DA! This da results! Not bad lah at least they said my eyes look bigger than hers in this photo, only. -:

This place is cool anyway but i wish to sit the balcony there IF there's second chance because is more windy. My hair was smelly and stink after we left the place because peoples do smoke around us and haiya you know la macam ini baru panggil alcohol place mar LOL. :D
The other day i went lunch with Yeesin and gave her the present in advance. Happy 20th Birthday laa~!

SUPERB ♥

2010-05-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

Because the feeling is so sweet man! heee. :)

We went this super sweet place hehehe and being silly like nobody's business. I am glad we gathered even though the place is a little bit..okay..is VERY hot indeed and i hope it's not because that we're being too energetic oops.

This fella purposely pause there and let me take photo of him lighting up the candle and keep shouting 'faster faster' therefore I just crop his mouth off because bloody hell this is so much better hehehe. ( i suke type long long sentence eh)

Lovely birthday girl LULU CHAN hahha the super reliable boss to me and super responsible PA to her boss HAHAHA. :) *others you might not know what am i talking but nvm this post is not for you buahaha*
Happy sweeet 18th!

Thank you JOOYEE helping us to take this very sweet mcm family photo. I super LIKEYYYY ahh!

And the desapark's playground part was superb! I so misssss this feeling of playing like kids!You guys are cool to left this all big and small footprints in ma life! ♥
The feeling of warmth, ever. :)

point of view.

2010-05-04T22:14:00.000-07:00

First thing ever, MY LULUIANS ARE ALL BACK IN KL! ALL!! for like one month plus? :)
but i can't meet you peoples this week because lulu gan is going to training camp in Seremban. :(

Like freaking-ly looking forward to Khalil's concert, Cameron trip, school band's concert, schoolmates food tour, on-the-way-planning Tioman trip during mid-year. Oh shit i forgot I'm sitting for ASS-PEE-M this year. OoPs. :P

This career week in our school really makes me OMG WE ARE GOING TO LEAVE HIGH SCHOOL VERY SOOOON. Actually I have not much interest in what they presenting and i just can't stand humans around keep asking what ya going to study ah-huh? NONE OF YOUR BUSINESSSS WEY. :(

I hate filling up 1,2,3,4,5 for choices of courses that you going to study in the survey papers after EVERY talks. The fact is like this, what i listed now doesn't mean i am going to enrol that after high school and WHY THE HELL ASK US TO CHOOSE WHICH IS THE BEST COLLEGE/UNIVERSITY like bloddy hell how do we know.
And i seriously falling asleep when she came in and talk about form 6-diploma-A level-Ausmat-scholarship-overseas-JPA -12A+..AHHHHHHHHH.

I am sorry if i am being over reacting but..this so called future pathway driving me crazy man. And then I'm sorry to those who can't read Chinese for entry below.

3A3B1C1G
Thank you, add math and BM.

我说

2010-04-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

现在天气很好。

我告诉自己，能为别人服务比被人服务来的好。所以我学着不抱怨，能做的我做。想发脾气时，呐喊一声深深吸一口气，然后呼出来，我就当没事。当别人已经超越我的范围时，我告诉自己‘人家可能只是想帮你嘛，干吗跟自己过不去’，然后拼命叫自己心胸要放大，要放大...

我真的觉得做好自己的本分，我们可能那一天可以愉快的合作，至少可能不用像现在，我连你想要什么我都不知道，只有迷茫跟随。
或许你觉得我根本不算什么，又或许，你觉得我只要跟着你的命令走就可以了，什么都不需要知道。也许一向来都没有人告诉你到底问题出在哪里，所以理所当然地你觉得问题不在你身上。你觉得跟我合作后问题才出现，那好像是我一直在说你的不是，但其实我只是想告诉你别人不敢告诉你的事。又或许，我退出之后再也没有人会否认你的办事能力。
那当然这种不负责任行为我是不会去做，所以，你爱怎样就怎样。

原来容忍可以这么累，原来决定放下之后心可以这麽疼。今年流着泪入睡第几次了..有多不想醒来的想法第几次了..
有时还真希望失忆一切从新来过，现在好像没有东西放不下了,什么都不重要了。

不爱孤单一久也习惯
感觉累了就放空自己
不想拥有太多情绪

Kiddult.

2010-04-17T23:50:00.000-07:00

They are just sweet enough to make me smile. :)

Like everyone of you did, I've these cool friends coloring my days. They are just different from my any other groups of friend because, they are same age with me wtf! We shared laughter in school and having tuition together and you never know how cool it can be when we gossips and criticize people sarcastically.

Maybe you didn't know i am always the youngest in other circle of friends. I used to be more mature because you know, the feeling of being the only one under 18 is not good. If you are also the one always joining those who are elder, you'll know maybe? We don't take photos along the way when you're walking only from restaurant to cinema. We don't debate which girl is more prettier and compare which girl's make up are nicer. We don't act funny in front of those placard in front of the cinema. We don't play sand card together in those kids section because thinking that it's embarrassing. We don't change RM2 tokens and play around the Arcade station and say:"Ah why this one need 3 tokens!"

I really feel so 'kiddult' today, according to Leslie Khor. Not a kid, not yet an adult.

I just love being childish sometimes when i can! Because when i grow elder, hatred and lies coming along the way and my heart actually not as strong as i thought it'll be. Just do what i want to do, and be who i want to be, that's all.

I don't need DSLR, i just want one.

Beloved

2010-03-28T18:43:00.000-07:00

Together forever, never apart.
Maybe in distance, but never in heart.

Loves,
Lynn

State competition'10

2010-03-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

It's on 14th March, a Sunday. It's the day i felt really collapsing because i damn sleepy and tired for the whole day because we have been awake since 3am in the morning and it's earlier than that to be exact.
But it's all worth it, you'll see..

:- It's 3rd for Home nursing, in state competition! -:

:- It's the efforts they put in, the time they sacrificed, the pressure they had to undergo.. -:

:- You need me to elaborate more? -:

In the rain.

2010-03-01T23:46:00.000-08:00

I always wanted to do so when the heavy burden exist.
And, i did it today.

Darling,
thank you for holding tight but not only artistic consolation. :)

sucks

2010-02-19T02:38:00.000-08:00

You said though you've been pretty busy but there's always time for friends.

what are we now?not cool not cool.
You got it?

No title!

2010-02-03T16:43:00.000-08:00

Hello human. :P
Debbie itu really influenced me and my thought a lot these days.

I love Biology.
Seriously. But i don't like to sit for the papers and get the lowest marks. Why lah Mrs King didn't come to me and say something like 'you have no qualification in studying Biology at all' then maybe i will get very upset and drop this subject and then live happily ever after wtf.

Still, sigh.
Can you smell CNY is getting nearer and nearer? WHOOO I might leave KL and head to Kuantan for 3 days and I do not know what to do there if Miss Yune gonna ditch me and stay at KL. :(
CNY is gooood. Because it makes people come around and gather along! My 2 Penang luluians is coming back KL and Jose from Aussie just arrived Malaysia! see? Everyone is here, with me. So cool so cool :)

Bought 1 Nike sports shoe on last Saturday and 4 shirts from Midvalley on Monday so i totally have 6 new clothes which makes me super hyper hyper and hyper. I just can't wait to show them off during CNY bahaha. :P

She is Brother's. Happy Birthday~! ♥

wounds

2010-01-28T15:48:00.000-08:00

What's the purpose of making a difference when nobody actually sees your changes and they behave the same attitude and having the same thoughts.

I did.
perhaps you didn't know.
Do you know when to support or advise when times come?
Perhaps you didn't know.
3 things happen in a day. I was having the worse feeling ever but look what you have done to me. Thanks for double up my sadness.

Today i cried when i need, i laugh when i want. It's cool to have Debbie cheering me up like a clown. Thank you for the PJ shirt when I'm tearing. You'll see me feeling better gagaga i mean later. :)

Why am i facing all these alone again. Can't you be there for at least once when i need you. Or i should back to reality and starting to get used to the life before you exist?

Excuse or what, I am feeling tired and ill. You should know.
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐.

smile hee. :)

2010-01-22T16:50:00.000-08:00

Yellow! darling darling sekalian. :)

Life's back to normal like nobody's business and HEY i slept at 10pm everyday now because everybody are telling me that they sat in front of their desk but things just don't go into their mind that's why i so not willing to become one of them therefore i went to bed early lorrr instead of awaking full stop.

A little bit updates of my life.

:- This is broga again and with humans i not familiar again.
I don't know 11 of them out of 12. This is not the saddest part yet. Let me tell you, we reached the peak early before sunrise but the clouds too naughty and blocked it all so i didn't get to see the orangy egg yolk :( -:

:- Classmate Faizah's Birthday party on last Saturday GAGAGA. -:

:- random shot. -:

I hate the school so much now because they ban my twilight saga wtf.
Anyhow this is something which i really want to tell nyek nyek.
After whole day activities and tuition, i got a surprise once i reached home. Well it's damn refreshing you know when something extraordinary happens in your ordinary life once awhile nyek nyek. I got this envelope with my name on it and when i opened it i saw a very exquisite handmade CD's cover and a written memo. It's from Kelvin! Basically is a CD filled with yiruma piano collection. I remember i just mentioned once in msn that i wish to have this you know. So touching wtf!

:- This is the cover and my CD player beside my bed nyek nyek.
Look the memo with the word 'surprise?' GAGGAA yes i AM. -:

:- And this is obviously me holding it and act like kissing it wtf HAHAHA.
To show you that I'm super glad receiving this! -:

Thank you once again Kelv!
It's really wonderful to have you in my life as BFF! :)

upbeat during hard times

2010-01-04T16:49:00.000-08:00

like OMG OMG OMG we are in form 5 now.

Stress is coming officially. I pray for still standing strong even though facing giants. Resolutions? Uhh, no. Not even one yet. GAGAGA. Still hoping some improvements in results. Gonna stalk all genius for studies. GAGAGA.

p/s

Miss yune, you gotta stay strong too.
Loves. :)

summaries year 2009.

2009-12-29T13:48:00.000-08:00

This gonna be the starter of this post because who cares lah this is my blog.

Look this is something popped into my mind when i really felt empty and i gonna welcome year 2010 into my life and say bye-bye to year 2009. T___T
I really afraid as the time passes on..
Looked back what I've done it might be very fun but what i felt it's seriously super empty deep inside me.. T___T

:- As the very first and last Qi Yuan's big gathering in this year. I definitely miss all of you and i don't wanna lost contact when there's not even one camp in this year. :(

:- I never really knew you,you were just another friend , But when i got to know you, I let my heart unbend. I know i shouldn't ask for more. :) -:

:- And then followed by heading to PD visiting the joyful sifu and went to beach with darlie and 13 without darling and trace, therefore i acted emo. :(

-: Cousins aunties uncles from mother's side. A very nice and sweet family that cannot be denied. Cousins from England and aunties from Kuantan! Johor's aunty is a little bit far anyway...:) -:

:- It's worth to woke up at 4am and get everything well prepared and get to see their achievement and made seniors dropped tears of happiness.. -:

:- Went MV celebrated Miss Chien's Birthday with one big gang from different groups. You was blessed seriously..I envy you very much you might not know :)

:- This was a great experience hiking ngan humans i not familiar with except darlie, 3 days before he left Msia to UK. Asthma visited during hiking but it's worth because i get to reach the third peak and get to meet Andrew! *blush* -:

:- By chance we practiced hard for only less than 2 weeks time to perform on stage for our KSTU Area dinner..A little changes among friendship that time and i hope it'll only strengthens us in the future.-:

:- By choice we gathered and get to know each other better and i really hope our friendship can last long..I heart luluians! -:

:- Went Jog For Hope and run 6km for this charity donations and did i mentioned i really love the Tees. :) And i love spending time with you deeeer.

:- Look how sweet were they wrote down my name on the sand and asking me to Rest In Peace when my birthday was just around the corner.. =__=
Celebrated my early Birthday on 15th Aug kat PD with luluians, without Sua who was having fever. :( -:

:- I swear this is the first and last time i got drunk and vomited in front of officers on 31st August! owh-kay, i hate carlsberg ewww. My very impressive 16's life started. -:

:- I celebrated moon cake festival together with many st johns members at our new HQ, Desa. And only i knew they can be as silly as possible once they are not in uniforms. teehee -:

:- As my skin got tanner after K.Selangor day trip to try the new bought DSLR. of hers. I can still remember how hard was i struggling and then Trace brought me out stopping me from emo-ing, thank you lots! -:

:- I don't remember how long we never take for a family photo. And this the chance we took during my Brother Melt's 21st Birthday party. :) -:

-: Celebrated mummy's Birthday at Umaiya treated by Penny Gan. A very nice but expensive Japanese restaurant..Took lots artistic photo using DSLR. -:

:- My dear classmates! 8 of us visited uncle Lim during schooling day. My full attendance cert was given on that day somemore. HEHEH, A day we had lots of fun. -:

:- We finally get to find one day for family trip heading to Genting. Even though the time we spent are little, I appreciated lots! Not forgetting how i spent my night time in the hotel room alone with the Tv On, and deeeer's msg! -:

:- Went Malacca straight after the holidays started. Luluians and some close friends, this trip without lulu Chan who was having SPM too! Our trip never complete one wtf. -:

:-Spot me spot me! Celebrated Grandpa's Birthday..I love family photos wee.-:

:- Once in a life time attending such special wedding. My StJohn's area officer aka cousin sister which is like super far way get married on 061209. Sounds fun! -:

:- My dear luluians at HGH hall on wedding dinner. We planned to take photo outside the hall after the dinner finish but very unfortunately the 2 lulu standing behind us got drunk and this is the only photo of us for that night. T___T -:

:- Followed by SONshine Youth camp 2009, learnt and had so much fun and get to know so many cute and friendly peoples! -:

:- aww this is us luluians again went Look Out Point for dinner the day after my camp. Had traffic jam for freaking one and a half hours. After dinner, we went KLCC for only 15 minutes took photos and then went home HAHAH. That's a great night. -:

Stories behind are too long to talk..and YES i am too lazy.
I miss so many humans in my life right now that i cannot even list it down. Headache and chest pain visiting me constantly now and i hope my determination is strong enough and nothing gonna confused me again and again once I've done the decision.
Sometimes i hope i can be stubborn for at least once.
oh hell, you should know I'm lying if i said i can't wait for the school to reopen.

Short and Sweet.

2009-12-20T17:25:00.000-08:00

Firstly,
Beautiful Christmas is finally coming very soooon..*cheers*

Peoples! I had a great experience ever. I joined Michelle's Church for caroling on Saturday and it was definitely fun even i was not in a great mode due the day before. But it's cool to visit houses and lighting up candles and stand close with everyone and sing.

19th was a good day perhaps. I didn't get to support Yeesin's Finals on live competition and i didn't choose to go Raymond Lam's concert with 2 FREE tickets at Genting. I chose heading to meet SONshiners and share the joy of happiness together with them and knowing the great wonders of Christmas.

In peace.

It's 20th today, ILY. ♥

sweetheart.

2009-12-17T22:26:00.000-08:00

Luluians,

Here we are. ♥

SONshine camp'09

2009-12-15T22:09:00.000-08:00

As a new comer of this great family..I felt welcomed by so many of them seriously. Everyone is so friendly and i felt a little bit nervous. I got to say this was my first camp ever. FIRST as in not either Qiyuan's or StJohn's. I got to remind myself they are not first aider and there's no super strict officers and rules to follow. I just have to enjoy myself and join them together and have fun! I just cant get used to it at the very first moment peoples! I am excited anyway..

The first person i met after we reached Mich's church, Grace Chai. She is really pretty! She drove us all the way to Bentong and we had our early lunch at 1130am because there's no lunch provided at the campsite. Heading to Dusun Eco Resort, the place we're having lots of fun and joys.

:- Journey heading to destination, Su Ann made me wear this..That's Mich!HAHA. -:

After we registered, number of 4, each one of us took bed sheet and pillow case and checked in to our room. I never been to a camp that beds is provided, so it's not bad after all BUT I got to tell you the pillow case is damn smelly and none of us can really stand it. So we just put aside the pillow case and started to put on bed sheet. I applied what i learnt from Home Nursing course okay..teehee. I slept without pillow for 2 days,homesick. :(

:- This is Su Ann, squatting in front of our room. This so called resort is a little bit disappointing anyway..>___< -:

We had obstacle course straight right after the orientation. Orientation mostly like separated into groups and come out with something like group's name and logo. So 4 of us was in this group named SWORD.

:- Before orientation -:

Obstacle course basically is mostly set up by using ropes. It's not hard yet challenging with the help of number of them. Most impressive task was to achieve balance with standing on a rope and hand in hand with your partner walked from one side to other end. I did this with Su Ann and we did it very well out of so many partners who actually felt from the rope!

And sessions went on after we took dinner and the day 2's morning. We had our games somehow like station by station and we got the 2nd place only differ few minutes from the champion!

:- My Sword team after the games. -:

:- Girls from the team exclude the orange colour one HAHAHA -:

:- BBQ's dinner that night. Random shot taken by Su Ann tu. Everyone looks tired after the sports. -:

And the third day.
I am so happy because i miss home so much even though just 3 days and i'm going home today! yet i felt so heavy because i just started get to know each one of them, and it's time for me to say BYE BYE especially after the water rafting! Getting wet was definitely not in my plan, but ended up Mich pulled me with her and we went inside the super cooling pond/river/whatever lah.. And i remember i went water rafting once in ICC, but that raft was provided already so this also a new experience that building the raft on yourself.

:- Before getting myself wet with Melissa. -:

:- Building the raft-:

:- As you can see our raft was not very stable HAHAHA -:

:- Looks like he is walking on the water! This is Chuah jumping in when photographer counted and everyone was ready to take a photo. -:

:- Nah, wet. -:

I miss i miss i miss i miss ALL of them already. T___T

:- My team with the soldiers hehehe. -:

:- Girls with Jamie! -:

:- I don't remember how freaking long time i never peace. -:

Definitely joining them for caroling this Saturday. I hope we can take more photos!
Till then! Beilynn lazy awww.

Snowy December

2009-12-03T01:13:00.000-08:00

Hello :)

And i shouldn't be so emo on the very early of December as many of them worry about me..So no worries! I will be happy and smile always HAHAHA even though it's a little bit tough..for me but! I promised i will try.
And i really pray there's nothing gonna ruin my Happy Christmas. Please?

:- That day video call darling Mei Fang just to make jealousy BAHAHAH. -:

:- And spot this, super dramatic photo. Ignore the middle one. -:

:- And only i realized how much i miss ICC. -:

:- If i forgot to tell you, ILY dear, always. ♥ -:

愛情說謊

2009-12-02T16:49:00.000-08:00

它帶你來　騙我說渴望的有可能有希望

You know.

You shouldn't have told me, and i am afraid i can't afford disappointment anymore as time passes on..
It's hurt and i know you don't do it on purpose as well as you wouldn't know incident happen and you have to wake me up from dreams you gave.
yet i do believe you have the ability to stop yourself from giving me hopes and colorful imagination space to let me know how happy am i going to be.
Oh please do not promise anything when you even find so hard to make me smile.

ily,♥

Memoirs of us ♥ Malacca'09 ♥

2009-11-29T01:21:00.000-08:00

As all the hotels and resorts got fully booked.. and we were planning this trip separately from Penang to KL..and only able to reserve 3 rooms when we called the forth hotels..
Thanks god We still managed to make it to this trip, which it's one of the trip in my list bahaha.

We departure at 9am in the morning, and 2 hours is needed for the journey. 5 of us and the couple only came right after 6pm. Guess what were we do during that freaking 6 hours plus while waiting them?
We went jonker street and have a walk, and buahaha i got the first Malacca souvenir from Ah Sua right away. It's actually because 3 for RM10 stuff and let my so called souvenir be the third. And i can't really enjoy it much due to my just-straightened-long-hair and the boiling-egg-sun..We went Chendol and it's super cooling! I apologise okay if my black/no-emotion's face shown again...it's really hot mar..

None of us can stand the weather so we decided to check-in the hotel first and have a nice bath..and the human who same room with me lying there deadly so i decided to ding-dong MF's room and kick out sys tu and have girl's talk.. I enjoyed the moment darling! :)
And we ding-dong Ah Sua's room since he is alone and we have nothing else to do. Guess what we did in his room! We watched the movie 'Orphan'. I hate horror film i tell you stupid freaky little girl inside there i hate you so much.

:- By using his HP because i didn't bring mine along before pressing his ding-dong. -:

And as the time passed, the couple reached very finally. We went scenic spots one by one enjoyed happily and this the first destination.

-:- eye on Malaysia -:-

And you know my gastric really tortured me for 2 freaking days?Oh gosh it's not my willingness to squat on the street and feeling better is the only reason for me to do so without caring my image even though i had left none.

-: night view water cruise -:

:- So did i mention this is the late comers couple. -:

:- I never get to have a chance to sit on this bek-chek. T___T -:

The mad-est thing i have ever done.
We queued up for freaking one and a half hours for supper and my tortured gastric followed too. T___T I don't remember how freaking hot and not windy there and i super black face I KNOW but who cares because i was HAVING GASTRIC!

:- Gonna remember this forever because they had this when i was having hard time fighting with my stomach wuwuwu. -:

I was the first person rushing in the bathroom and showered happily when we stepped in our hotel room. I love the hot water so much and there's no reason for MML complaining the water is too hot..ah-huh, what she make of?

I can still remember the cartoon-laughing-voice from Lulu Hor before i felt asleep. I was just thought to interrupt their conversation after 2 of them were done bathing and when i opened my eyes i saw lights from the window and my phone showing 8am in the morning. I slept without waking up in the middle of the night! I was blessed!

And this is the next morning as we were ready to check out..

:- And i am HOT buahha! -:

:- Owh you just failed to cause jealousy lahh. :) -:

:- Inside the Dataran Pahlawan :-

:- The beach and the peoples. -:

Even thought we left quite early but i only reached home at 12am midnight.. We went PD after we left Malacca wanted to catch the sunset yet, I am not gonna tell you that i went PD beach for three freaking times on this year, and i NEVER get to catch the sunset! It was very pitiful okay..T___T You don't understand my feelings.. T___T yet I enjoyed night at the beach teehee. :)

I praised if you gotta the patience to read till here. =P

teehee.

2009-11-26T00:32:00.000-08:00

My long hair is back dah... :)

I have too much things to share yet i don't know where to begin. My mood went up and down and up and down and up and down yeah because too much things to settle recently. Oh and i just came back from Malacca and i super love the trip even though the sun seriously macam boiling egg and my freaking-just-straightened-hair annoyed me alotsss. T___T
Wait sabar-ly if you are able to visit my blog to check it out the trip because Beilynn is too lazy to update and the photos from dear Mei Fang haven't reach me yet teehee.

I went book fair with Miss Yune on Tuesday and i didn't get to see her for freaking one month already! I love and enjoyed the girl's talk very much teehee. *i tell you, guys are all idiot buahhaa* And i know she only working there on weekends meaning i can paktoh at 1 Utama from Monday to Friday HAHHAHA so happy right. =___=
And i went crazy and a little bit frustrated for that evening and on Wednesday morning. Yeah it's all done when i spent my lunch time with the love, and my longtime-missing-darling at night. Teehee. <3

blueee

2009-11-24T21:57:00.000-08:00

dear,

Why are you not here with me when you are needed most...

And we're getting closer. ♥ Genting'09 ♥

2009-11-13T21:07:00.000-08:00

Thanks God our outing went very smoothly..isn't?

So today's supposed to be a school day but unfortunately we did skipped school and went for a short day-trip. It's very sunny in the morning when we reached the Kepong KTM and we prayed very hard for a not raining day before we murdered all the Outdoor theme park's game. We were in a rush when we know our bus at 8am going to drive off.

And..Yeah, the bus drove away without waiting the 8 of US. I wonder since when Malaysian so punctual ah-huh. In the shoe of having no other choice, Each of us paid 20 bucks and we took 2 taxi to reach the cable car station. It was like my first time to sit for a cab for a such long journey. (Is far enough for me.) The taxi is clean and the driver was very friendly. I know he's trying to warm up the situation with making lots of jokes you know..but it ends up worse. I sat beside him and wanted to ask him to shut up but it's too rude to do so and he's quite a nice man lahh over all. :)

see?She can even sleep in peace HAHA.

once in my life time seeing this high rate

And we reached the station very safely. It's very excited because my last time for cable car was 10 years ago wtf. And there's no nice view like i thought but i pretty afraid of the height when i looked down from the cable car. It's freaking high weyyy. I don't remember i have this phobia also.

Before we entered

i told you! It's very sunny.

And the first thing we do after we reached was..rushing in the KFC.Shan and Qian enjoyed very happily with their breakfast while the others can't wait and hoping they will just swallow without chewing bahaha which is so impossible. We waited very patiently and i started to feel the distance between theme park and Genting was so looooong while we were walking.. I am just so, can't wait~!

Finally we can smell the fresh air of Outdoor's theme park! And we took some photo with this two big thingy..

Enthusiastic Tabby

And what if it's a guy inside there? *eww*

It's still very sunny day and i thanks god for that. We then queued up for the first game. The queue wasn't long if it's compared to weekends with full of secondary school's students and some foreign people. To kill time and obviously this is what we will do..

Spot the fish.

and Shan photo penceroboh!

siao kia Qian :)

And we had our lunch at 1pm after the fun kart! It's cool to drive you know HAHA and it's not hard to control the car by using one hand what...haha! Indoor- after we had our lunch at McD (it's really fattening you know i ate Mc Chicken set plus one large cheesy wedges oh god), Shan and Qian went to the rock climbing game which cost RM4 per game. Once you drop to the mattress its counted game over. Oh gosh. You just need to spent RM4 and you can try it without any basic foundation and hello Kelvin Tan why we spent that freaking 4 HOURS ROCK CLIMBING COURSE last time eh?

Thanks god i am naturally in darker skin wtf, because Shan and KY got sunburn and very sorry for waiting us to finish up the race teehee. It's very nice to enjoy the time with them even though they keep singing the song which i never heard before, and i dunno when's the rain came and the time reminded us it's time to leave. The rain come so sudden and we got stucked. I didn't get to play the what-ever-spiderman game because all of them got tired wtf. So we just walked and spent our last little time at there and took some photos as memories. It's cool and super windy after the rain. And it's the only chance to let us put on out jackets you know! Gosh the weather nowadays, we never wear a jacket until the rain come.

photo ini berkualiti, don't you think so?

<3>

so we pointed there, the Genting logo.

And we acted emo because we're leaving!

We left at 530pm to catch up our bus which's leaving at 630pm. We were pretty rushing because none of us are going to spent another 20 bucks right? After all it's a very worth trip! Oh did i mention that day my school was giving out full attendance's cert? Thanks a lot to darling Mei Fang for helping me for that freaking cert. Who asked Beilynn is like so freaking smart and chose that particular day to skip school wtf. Anyhow, I have done my so called task for year 2009. I got full attendance okay. :)

And i hope you will be smiling from your heart when you read this post because you should be happy for me as i found them as my true friends.

And very sorry my blog was in private mode for the last few days. I just need some time to think whether can i share what's truly deep inside me now with all of you.
So i decided to make it back to normal and i hope you can just read and forget about it and DO NOT GOSSIPS. :)

Because you worth it.

2009-11-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

The road not taken LOL.

And today, a meaningful day out of the year.

I try so hard to set my mind free HAHA and start thinking am i doing the right thing, performing the right options..and no, there's no answer for that. Opinions and advices come, but they failed to enter my mind. I told myself no regrets. But see what's these all about that running through my mind? Look who's the one that are not willing to accept the fact, look who's the one that struggling so hard here.

JESUS

And i am very clear that there's no return after I've decided this. It's not that i cannot, It's the willingness that matters. It's not easy lor seriously as the feelings gone deeper and deeper. And it's definitely neither because of loneliness nor i am a teenager that happens to be falling in love now. And OH PLEASE can i just ditch away the fcuking principle of my own that set by myself? Beilynn you idiot lahh.

Because you worth it, dear.

I want someone to listen.

2009-10-30T23:55:00.000-07:00

Finals ended, meaning holidays is coming soon and also meaning Christmas is coming soon also meaning year 2010 is coming soon also meaning Form 5's life is coming soon also meaning Trial is coming soon also meaning freaking SPM is coming soon and also meaning bnyk bnyk stress is coming to me now wtf.

Yes i was having a hard time after the Chemistry paper. But i especially thanks to some random friends of mine that really help me freaking lots through out the whole October. They really freakingly touch my heart sometimes and i really really glad to have them in my Form 4's life. I knew it..I knew..they are my true friends that i was searching for so freaking long.

Credits to the very positive thinking X.Qian that save me from finals that gonna ruin my life. You might not know that i am very glad to have a siao kia fren like you. :)
And to P.Xing and Y.shan this argue-non-stop-couple, teaching me add math with the extraordianary patience in both of you, and exactly make my life more colourful because is very sweet to see P.xing's smile and it's super nice to bully Y.shan. *evil grin*
And to Michelle Chen! The buddy fighting the finals war with me for that freaking 3 weeks and my inbox totally full of your Gahyao-ish's messages. I love you dear! *hugs hugs*

Before i sit in front of my PC today, i got lots of things running through my mind that i wanna talk about it. But now, i got stucked.
I am still wondering, whether..whether..Yeah, whether are you my true friend. Okay this may hurt you..
You know, i myself is the one that very insecure and sensitive person, maybe you might not know. But..i am. Dear, yes i AM. I cannot stand the pressure i having..anymore when i be with you, I cannot stop thinking about the problem we are facing now that never have a solutions. I cannot stand the silence between you and me ALL the time. I don't want this to happen so much but it DID, now. I do not know how to face you yeah instead...I rather don't talk to you the whole day and guess what? It makes me feel so much better. We are very very very different people that cannot stand too close to each other.. No matter how hard i pretend and endure..i knew this very long ago.

Okay emo finish. I am gonna start dating.

Finals break.

2009-10-16T13:00:00.000-07:00

I miss this budak and, i miss those day.

I gained weight, a lot. Like usual lah okay and I seriously have to start dieting from now. Said is always easier than done. I think i can only manage to determine for 2 days. Teehee. I know i did very well for chemistry, just clap and laugh like an idiot alright. I am so gonna pray that i will not be emo after i get my reports card with full of red marks. Yes, not praying for results, but the card. I am so gonna look beyond imperfections as she said quoted by GBL.

Thanks god my insomnia didn't get worse and i sleep pretty well for the last few days. It's super not good for health lahh everyday stressing like this. 2 more freaking weeks and come come let's ponteng together buahaha. Oh, PJK test sucks lahh.

I am so looking forward to Christmas now buahaha influenced by Miss Chien tu. I know it's still freaking damn far away but who cares la we were just day dreaming HEHE! I wanna go Genting for fireworks because i don't want to see the handmade fireworks again by DarLing at Puncak Templer for year 2009. ELO, can i stay there until new year eve ah? :D

Tomorrow,17th of Oct which is my Brother's 21st Bday party and also meaning i will see lots of aunties and kepochi gather around SIGH. Let's see how many aunties will be telling me the "you are fat' statement and then i will tell you after i count the number.

By the way, Mr.Loh makan vinegar because of his return.
Welcome back, My Darlie. :)

“第一次看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切”

Persistence?

2009-10-08T22:47:00.000-07:00

I pay you to kill me.

Deal?

It's over man, let her go.

angryangryangry

2009-10-02T23:37:00.000-07:00

In the End, people will just turn out to be who they promised they wouldn't.

BITCH LA YOU.

Why do i have to act the way you like.

Oh yeah, finally.
The deal is done. :P

Kuala Selangor '09

2009-09-26T19:29:00.000-07:00

Insomnia.
Having it recently. It's suffering and there's lots of stuff running through my mind in the middle of the night. I know i know i know i am damn lonely when Mr.Loh not around and i know i know i know it's easier said than done when i said i am not going to miss this human. I know i know i know Miss chien gonna lecture me again if she know i am suffering like this and i know i know i know she is right that my soul really cant match what i promised.

I should be happy because i went short trip and i know i know i know i broke my promises that i keep looking at the time and trying to figure out what Mr.Loh doing at KL. You know i am just having a hard time. If there's no solution for both of us, i guess this will be THE END.

And so the sun is super hot yesterday. And OneFM keep playing the same song, repeatedly. K.selangor not much places to visit though~ sana tak ade leng zai beach weyy! :(

If you can spot my charming smile in every photos. :)

And we only finish our lunch at 3pm and then she drove us to Sekinchan to visit paddy field under stupid hot sun.

I am sorry if you can't feel the joy from this post. I am not in blogging mood but i can tell you i REALLY enjoyed much yesterday even though my skin colour got darker wtf. Just a little refreshment before my finals start. You might see Beilynn a little emo and YES LAH I AM EMO SO WHAT.
I can't upload photos at facebook so you don't have to visit my profile. SO saddening and i am so emo because i cannot share nice dan berkualiti photos! GRR!

Yeah look? I've change the blogskin. I don't find it very nice but Miss chien said its better than previous one.
Note: I am sorry i don't have the time to fix the picture beside there and my link all gone. Kindly leave me a foodprints so that i can link you back. And i dunno why the font is so UGLY, Toodles!

p/s> I wish TRUST can gather asap tau, i miss ALL of you tau. Do you hear me?

sweetsour.

2009-09-19T00:05:00.000-07:00

<3 I am so happy to spend the freaking/interesting/boring/doing-nothing gathering for 12 hours with luluians. :)

<3 I cannot text Miss chien because her hand phone gone mad. So wishing her to have a safe trip back from Phuket and most importantly buy me souvenirs! bahaha, loves!

<3 Study plan for tomorrow got canceled again, last minute. I am so damn frustrated and i hate last minute change of plans so much that you think. I am so gonna burn the airport wtf.

<3 I really hate those over-reacting/arrogance genius. The world definitely not turning because of you alright? AH, i am trying so hard not to curse you.

<3 I need a camera lah and oh shit my birthday just over man!

<3 I am quite happy that i don't need/not going to participate in any ST.JOHN's function on October BAHAHA.

<3 oh FINALS i am so afraid of you. I am gonna die for you again wtf. BeiLynn is not smart enough to study SMART and yet study HARD doesn't help much. :(

<3 HELLO Mr. Loh. I am so gonna tell you that WE urgently have to stop meeting each other like this. *frown* imissyouimissyouimissyou.

Oh-oh..too much updates recently. I guess there will be no entries for October. Toodles!

All The Way.

2009-09-18T01:29:00.000-07:00

这一路走来
我们一起携手
在看不到边际的沙漠行走
四方都是地平线的沙漠
飞沙走石
我们没有方向的奔着
没有一个人会害怕
因为我们一直在一起
勇敢的
在沙地上奔着、奔着
拼命地狂奔

你离开的决定
我们的命运注定被埋在沙尘中
沙尘暴袭击我们
把你带到世界的另一个角落
少了一个同伴的我们开始乱了步伐
要继续狂奔吗?
看不见的未来几乎把我们给吞没
现在惦记着的你
未来是否还会被我们从回忆里挖掘出来
细细品味在一起时那一页页泛黄的日记
而常被我们惦记着的你
未来是否一样
偶尔也会寻找属于我们的日记?

以后的以后
转角再碰面的时候
当回忆和感情被时间冲淡了
关系生疏了
我们依然可以疯疯癫癫笑成一团
打成一片
呃.......
不要再骗自己了
似乎不太可能吧

未来的未来
我们应该会想念
那个
我们认识的爱笑
爱笑的爱笑
爱哭的爱笑
善良的爱笑
那个
把 Sleeping Bag丢给我们的爱笑
很想念，很想念......

离开我们的时候
不要背对着我们
偷偷的哭泣
要哭就一起哭
要笑就一起笑
痛痛快快的
让我们打从心底笑到最后
潇潇洒洒走一回
举起盛满开心泪水的酒杯畅饮
杯子里泛起的阵阵涟漪
在我们的心头荡漾
心里有说不尽的感动
就让它在我们的心里流动
干杯!!!
祝你西出阳关无敌人
踏上你的彩虹大道吧!
铺着我们满满的祝福的彩虹大道!

后记:
某天心里想说的话

如果今天是我的生日，

如果我的人生只能许三个愿望，

我的第一个愿望是你会改变心意留下来；

第二个是KDU从此消失掉；

第三个是希望神能够把世界变小一点，那么我和你重逢的机会会更大。

BAHAHA. :)

2009-09-16T01:19:00.000-07:00

Spot me and my SUPER SUPER chubby face plus SUPER SUPER large body size. So depressed lahh and PLEASE LOOK who's sitting beside me? GRR.
We've been living in this class for 9 freaking months!
You guys just awesome. :)

I am so not gonna show you St.John's photo.
It's ten thousand times worse than this. GRR.

Just so you know.

2009-09-15T00:41:00.000-07:00

Penny and Melvin, Gan.

Family means putting your arms around each other and being there. Therefore, I am so gonna give my FULL support to whatever that you guys going to do next. Just knock on my bedroom's door and HUG me once you need to induce energy, or reduce stress.

I love YOU, and YOU always, no doubt.
Cross my heart.

BAHAHA :)

Dearly sister,
with lots of love.

2009-09-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

28 days to FINALS.

BeiLynn why are you still rolling over here FCUK.

Hello lui yan.

2009-09-06T15:53:00.000-07:00

WHEN I THINK THAT MY BLOG IS A LITTLE BIT DULL AND...DOWN/EMO/WHATEVR.

BeiLynn is stalking human's blog recently.

Life is so bored that's all i can say. I can't wait for the finals to END and I promise to study for the first/half month/2 weeks of year-end-holidays and fool around for the last month of year 2009 YEAH YEAH. :)

OH-Oo, Penny gan plus mummy said my tummy look bigger just like i got pregnant instead of saying i gained weight, again! So i throw her hormones-imbalance-recently as the worse excuses ever. I refused to let the machine tell me that GET OFF, YOU ARE HEAVY DUDE. grr..Do you know how hard to control not to drink ice blended chocolate every single weekend.
So, human! Kindly stop Beilynn from eating currypuff during reccess ...as if you can.
Isn't boring every lui yan complaining i am fat i am fat i am fat no matter how slim they are...

Now everyone is so addicted to facebook..i wonder.
HOW HUMAN SURVIVE last time WITHOUT FACEBOOK?

I just can't deny what feels so right.
Now i am waiting 5pm to come, and then she will be free and start to text me BAHAHA..
I want to go as many places as we can! and create bnyk bnyk memories...and then become emo IF she's leaving next year.. TEEHEE. Bravo Beilynn. Go ahead and feels no regrets. :)
And she is the only one refusing i called her as lui yan NAHAHA.
I <3 YOU LAH BUDAK!

toodles dude.

2009-09-03T15:42:00.000-07:00

越来越无法自拔

Skirt of Sixteen. ♥

2009-08-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

My three wishes.

First, Live happily ever after.
Second, Live happily ever after.
Third, Live happily ever after.

I turned 16, today.

You know.
I didn't ask for relatives-gather-around celebration. I didn't have Birthday cake to cut. I didn't receive generous gifts. I didn't get kisses and hugs from besties. I didn't keep telling myself "today is my BIG day, is my BIG day." I didn't frown when CML forgot my Birthday.
I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. :)

You know.
I received Bday msg when clock showing 12am and i didn't reply MOST of them. I went book fest with random friend. I ate KFC for lunch. I bought myself books, Tees and Musical's CD. I received her call saying 'happy birthday.' I received darlie's sms from UK. I ate random yet special dinner with family. I did my revision at night. I saw their blog wishing me i am 16 today. I called her and I spent my last 30 minutes of 27th August on the phone with her. I felt warmth.
I am happy. I am happy. I am happy. :)

You know.
This is the most ordinary Birthday i have ever had. I feel so silence deep inside me.
Age 16. How should it look like? I am so glad now ,at least, i think so. So many of them envy of my life, that's it. Age 16, i do have lots of precious memories.

You know.
I comforted myself that not everyone compulsory agree the way you do. I cried when i am sick. I stopped when i am too tired. Age 16, I tell myself the reason of crying is no longer the same.

You know.
I never want to see how sad my mom is whenever she look at my results. I wonder will she gone mad one day when she compare my primary and high school's results. Age 16, I am trying so hard to make a difference.

You know.
When friend is super important to me and i cant stand betrays,hatred and lies. They are my soul even is true i don't have a BESTfriend. I am unable to keep in touch with every single of them and they left me. Age 16, I tell myself there's a reason they didn't make it to my future.

You know.
I am Sixteen, today.

must it have a title?

2009-08-23T17:51:00.000-07:00

MISS YUNE!

Dating BeiLynn is much more interesting than business course and working mar!
We never meet for one freaking month already ooi! Come out let me entertain awhile la grr.

Enlarge and spot the guy!
I miss him lahh seriously :)

So, feeling regrets didn't make it to 30 hour famine camp.. I already ate how many foods this weekend when people fasting 30 hour there. =(
Beilynn dunno how to enjoy life recently. She don't even feel excited anymore like she used to when the calendar showing the date is closer and closer to 27th Aug.

August floops and gone, like nobody's business.

It's coming.

2009-08-14T15:46:00.000-07:00

Kelvin Tan,
This.is.me.and.my.sister,say.cheese.

School. missing the one sitting in front of me with ponytail.

It's Friday anyway, tomorrow is 15th! A day i am yearning! No, i don't mean the schooling part. GRR. Before enjoying my wonderful weekends, gonna sit for Physic's test, mood cut down bnyk bnyk because i can sense that i am going to fail. yeap, GOING TO. They said its challenging and i am pretty worry about it. Study,failed. Don't study, FAILed also. I rather to choose the latest options. =(

Let's pray for tomorrow, no one is willing to listen Mr Chew's INITIATIVE SPEECH after we get back our papers. Left Chemistry and Bio fall on next Tuesday and Thursday, the 2 subjects i have no confidence at all.

GRR. You know how much i love my name as GAN BEI LYNN. Beloved teachers, come to me if you facing difficulty to call my name in proper. I refuse so much to stand up when you calling GAN BEE LIEN which is so disgusting man! ISH. Even St John's meeting type my name as BEE LYNN before. GRR.

Lastly, Big HUGGIES for AIMEI! *kiss kiss*

FED-UP

2009-08-09T22:21:00.000-07:00

Tell me it's possible to transfer to arts stream now..

Isn't good after all to score A's for science in PMR.

Look Up. YES, fed-up.

future ah future, tell me you are not important.

yearning.

2009-08-06T16:16:00.000-07:00

She said next Sartuday 15th of August is our school day.

NAHAHAHA, i seriously wanna laugh to death man! 3 weeks perfect planning just PROOF! and gone NAAHAHAHAH. You dunno I've been looking forward to this day for a long time NAHAHAHHAA. I just don't deserved a nice treatment. NAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. Let it be let it be, i know we can still gather and have bundles of joy, yet i just felt a little bit..disappointed. yeah just, a little bit.

Now i don't feel excited for August anymore. Nah, i better don't expect anything. It hurts more seriously.

Aug is my month!

2009-08-05T15:58:00.000-07:00

Hey Madeline Loh. =)

Finals on October. Well done everyone, i can't get what Miss Tan crapping during Chemistry lessons, feel so lost. How am i going to survive around genius?How HOw HOW!? I am not glad that I've lost my passion and responsibilities is the only things that dragging me back. Feel so lazy recently. Didn't get enough sleep and Ms Cheang started to complain already. Oh gosh BeiLynn what are you doing FCUK.

Nothing to be happy about? grr so saddening.
Next week come faster kay? I want throw away those test test exam exam stuff and play happily with my luluians. They are coming back finally! Happy?Excited? YES YES YES! =)
Sorry cannot make it for the training, dear QiYuanies. =)

I got one black-rose-sticker-tattoo on my right thigh!BUAHAHA.
AAHH, too much confusing feelings recently which affected my mood bnyk bnyk.

JL MY NEW LOVE BUAHAHAHA.

我对你
再好再亲密都不能在一起
所以我们才选择
做比情人更好的朋友

SHOO.

2009-07-30T23:28:00.000-07:00

Don't come near Bei Lynn if you don't wanna get hurt.

she is pretty dangerous.

Happiness can only last for awhile.is not real.

Jog For Hope.

2009-07-23T17:38:00.000-07:00

CAUTION
Taylor's College Sri Hartamas ade banyak leng zai.

Everything is pretty fine.
Not to mention the 85 minutes plus petrol wasted and RM5.2 road toll, searching for the place which is just located super near my house and actually human can just reach there in 15 minutes. Highly thanks to Yee Shan who gave wrong information and direction, and keep on complaining with innocent look after we reached the destination. All i can say is she was testing my patience.

Anyway the jogathon is to raise fund for spastic children. The run 6km long and she told me is only 3km before i registered! GRR. Who asked Bei Lynn was so smart, wore the 'not-for-sports' Nike shoes and it hurts my foot seriously before the jog. MML spirit high sangat and jog 1km and , waited for me at the checkpoint. She was like 10 years younger from her real age on that day and i behaved like 10 years older, i wonder why. Grr. Let's go hike next time!

I know it's a little bit late to tell i just watched Transformers. Yeap on the same day.
Sad to say i felt so sleepy and just cant concentrate who is actually fighting with Optimus. =(
I am sooo sorry la dear Tran's fans. I will make sure i drink a cup of coffee first before entering the cinema for Harry Potter next Saturday hehe.

And and and! I wanna tell the Friday DU dinner was awesome!
Last weekend was so wonderful and satisfied!

p/s: Yi Yuan is a charm handsome guy. =)

You are too nice and i dunno how to repay.

Darlynn with lots of love. <3

2009-07-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

DARLING DARLING DARLING.
Ta-dah!

Here come my wishes hehe.

Move on with your diet plan with the sangat determine punya determination and Stop falling for guys *sorry sorry shawty shawty* who only appear in TV alright!?
YOU should know i love you not only today but every single moment! I miss the hang out precious moment! DATE ME! <3

JUST remember i love you.
even though LGT ditched you already,
or,
LLL left! ;-) *evil evil*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

dilemma dilemma and the never-end-dilemma

2009-07-18T16:51:00.000-07:00

I shouldn't ask you to create a blog,

To hurt me not only once yet ALWAYS.

Go ahead with all your guessing and insecure,

since trust never exist between me and you.

Go cry on her shoulder like you used to,

and let everyone thought Bei Lynn is an idiot.

Don't you ever test my patience,

I am afraid i lost my control and hurt you more.

I am not okay and you should know i am trying to pretend OKAY.

PS> I very BS,
could you tell me first
instead of whole world
when something happened?
FCUK.

brainwash me! =(

2009-07-09T16:13:00.000-07:00

PLEASE

tell me that my weighing machine got error

instead of

i gained weight wtf!

luluians.

2009-07-05T05:56:00.000-07:00

I miss yesterday.

Dear yan yan went back Penang. We will just wait and meet one month later. =)
Having lots of fun last night and just frustrated why the time passed so fast. Desapark City's jogging path seems so short and finally reached the car park and reminds me its the time to leave. =(

From Full House all the way to The Curve and at last Desapark. How much we ate and at last i din spent a bucks. Thank you so much, to care and demanding nothing in return. Hard to describe how fortunate am i to have you guys in my life and melt my heart every single minute. No regret even though my camera died in luluian's hands! I am still happy wtf. <3

Private album is already the maximum i can do, and i dunno what's the reason for me to do do. Democracy huh, easier said than done. Whatever jealous or mean, i stil got the right to make friends.

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday
Left with the memories
I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time
I had you with me
Though we go our separate ways
I won't forget
The memories we made

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2009-06-24T18:23:00.000-07:00

Can i request the world to ignore me for a day?

So tiring.
I cant complain because it's all what i reserved. No one i can talk to. I refused to get consolation from hypocritical humans. So depressed. So cloudy. So down. I wish to go under the rain and get myself wet and scream sepuas-puas hatinya. I have lost my courage to still standing.

Life is like an onion, you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.

It saddens me when i know we gonna separate even though we just started to get close. All i can say is fate kan? Brighten up you guys future and fight for it! and we will move on together although we are in different corner of the world. =)
Friends, is really hard to treasure.

Because i have loved life, i shall have no sorrow to die.

optimist

2009-06-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

I-am-glad that i got bad results for mid-year,

So that improvement will exist in my finals!

Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless.

I am not what has happened to me. I am what I choose to become.

lulu gan speaking.

2009-06-14T01:25:00.000-07:00

Floops floops floops..

2 weeks holidays gone! Back to normal schedule living in bored life with everyday woke up reach school recess school finish coco activities back home study off light sleep.
I is so emo after thinking all of THESE. =(

Girls!show we know how to groove yay! =) i am so excited for the coming weeks, not the schooling part. LULU family gonna separate already very very soon, everyone is leaving since i said! T.T

Penny Gan playing Solitaire showdown with her friend through msn. I dunno what is so fun with it because she keep losing and scolding:" wtf!i dun wanna play with you~!". 30 sec later she click on start button and play again and the step above was repeated until one of them got tired. I wonder any other way to kill bored? Hng.

p/s> i miss you already wtf!

Saddest thing in the world.

update

2009-06-11T23:23:00.000-07:00

I ..decided to update.

But..I dunno what to update..

So..I decided to update next time whenever i know what am i going to update.

He's leaving.

2009-06-06T16:50:00.000-07:00

. My mom said don't go airport because H1N1.
. I didn't go at last too because i have no transport.
. I am not sad because we just said "HELLO!".
. He owed me 'attention' and langkawi's chocolate.
. I know i am going to miss him. =)

Yes he's leaving so what la just half years what. Just don't forget Our sir name after you come back buahaha. I am not going to write long post also hehe since i already wrote you a very longy email.

we love you ♥

fyi

2009-06-04T00:48:00.000-07:00

. I finally get to see Andrew_c ! *shh*
. It's already Thursday, I Hate Sunday.
. MML got sprain on her neck.
. I miss campS. T.T
. Jose going Aussie next Wed and darlie going UK this Sat. =(
. I had lots of fun these days and tuitions aren't that bad after all. =)
. We are organizing blood donation campaign this Sun kat Carrefour.
. My mom asked me go get married asap.
. I IS not lulu Gan wtf.

i am so lazy to write long long post.

THE END.

we are still saying goodbye! T.T

Belief.

2009-05-29T16:58:00.000-07:00

B.Lynn is so lazy.down.and cloudy.
I am not satisfied with what I've done for my exams. It's sucks.Bad.Terrible to the max. I believe i will do it better. I swear!
Sometimes in life, what appears to be the end is really a new beginning. right? But i am afraid i left not much time. =( It sounds like suicide.okay its not,Although i wanna try once so much.
I mean it's already mid-year!Hard time for me to catch up durh.

PLEASE.
Sexy seriously not my type.
I just wanna show the nail which colored by using Penny Gan's liquid paper.

Liquid paper wey. It's cool. Oh another can you see it's silver? YES! I used silver marker pen. =)
Okay i know it's a little bit silly, ok maybe not a little bit. It's silly so what?I was so depressed bcz of examsss! According to Penny gan's Psycho, she said Petai can cure depression. Oh i hate it so much okay.

And according to kcm, we gonna cam whore to kill bored while studying. Sooo..

. I've finally done with 11 days mid-year examss.
. I cried terribly after physics paper 2.

. I've lost my patience to science subs.
. I got stomach ache when the add math paper going on. =(
. I am still going dance class during exams period.
. I am not excited for the 2 weeks-busy-tuitions holidays.
. I slept at 1am+ and woke up 5am for revision but it's totally useless.
. I want my life to be more colorful.
. I want to be happy mar! ><

THE END.
I am not going to have a massive updates like what Darling used to do.
HAHA, I will blog about my WONDERFUL holidays next time.

P/s darlie.
A farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again after moments or a life time is certainly for there who are FRIENDS.

love hides

2009-05-15T15:40:00.000-07:00

Their blog got polluted by love.

He said
"study first,
relationship can wait."

"I waited a lifetime to say I love you..."

"If each time i thought you were a flower,

I could walk in my garden forever."

"I don't love you now because
I will love you always"

2009-05-10T18:19:00.000-07:00

oh babe you so so cool.

dayah

2009-05-08T23:29:00.000-07:00

Once ST.Marian, forever ST.Marian.

I am glad because no one can bully my cm anymore! You know we will miss you so much hoh you idiot.
Don't test, i will still drop tears. Hopefully you can remember the pain, LAWAK-ke?
loves.

my prayer.

2009-05-01T14:14:00.000-07:00

日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停

出现那些你对我好的场景

如果能重来一次请别再这样重爱我
爱一个字也需要及时只差一秒心声都己变历史
到最后该不该回头如果我开口爱继续往前走
爱的时候说过的承诺爱过以后就不要强求

松开你的手离开你左右
我向前走这会是我真正的解脱
我在我的世界不能犯规你在你的世界笑我无所谓
一个拥抱能代替所有

要等待我的爱

陪你永不离开
will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the days cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
will you let her know that I love her so
When there's no one there that she's not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know

That's a secret i will never tell.

lunar

2009-04-30T23:14:00.000-07:00

My dear 13 called and complained. He said he don't care, oh really? HAHA. BFF huh, see how long we can maintain alright. I am not sure it will bring us more happiness in our future or shadow of failure. Who knows? It's so saddening when i know her turns i knew her.

[ I close my eyes and the flashback starts. ]

Fuisheh, i thinking of him and fallen asleep weih, but he hates me too much and never enter my dream. It's okay, i know it's too late to apologize. =(

Well, i got gastric! diet la diet, DIE faster. ><>

So human now? keep long or cut short?
Choose wisely~

stress spree?

Wth.

p/s: If short again, i swear it won't be like helmet or mushroom again alright. I swear!

dreamed dream.

2009-04-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

Travel around and get married with different guy in different country. Gain weight till 118kg then lose weight till 43kg. Name my child as Buddhista Chan or Breakdancer Lee. Go for a dance competition in a team at least once (huge one!) Sleep in a coffin for a night. Laying among the lavenders. Swim without wearing anything . Sign up to become an organ donor. Give my first kiss to someone with thick lips. Go for the Penang bridge marathon. Have a designer boyfriend.

Fly a kite! Have long hair until my waist. Take a solo photograph album. Ride a very fast horse. Wear bikini at least one in my life time. Take part in a drama. Walk over the lagoon hang bridge. Sleep without anything on. Built a snow-woman. Change sexes with him for a day. Get myself a nice tomboy partner. Receive one bouquet of Ferrero Rocher. Try Bungy jump. Go in 7-11 and ask :"where's 7-11?" Taste Taiwan's super longy ice-cream.

possible or impossible.