No title!

Hello human. :P
Debbie itu really influenced me and my thought a lot these days.

I love Biology.
Seriously. But i don't like to sit for the papers and get the lowest marks. Why lah Mrs King didn't come to me and say something like 'you have no qualification in studying Biology at all' then maybe i will get very upset and drop this subject and then live happily ever after wtf.

Still, sigh.
Can you smell CNY is getting nearer and nearer? WHOOO I might leave KL and head to Kuantan for 3 days and I do not know what to do there if Miss Yune gonna ditch me and stay at KL. :(
CNY is gooood. Because it makes people come around and gather along! My 2 Penang luluians is coming back KL and Jose from Aussie just arrived Malaysia! see? Everyone is here, with me. So cool so cool :)

Bought 1 Nike sports shoe on last Saturday and 4 shirts from Midvalley on Monday so i totally have 6 new clothes which makes me super hyper hyper and hyper. I just can't wait to show them off during CNY bahaha. :P

She is Brother's. Happy Birthday~! ♥

wounds

What's the purpose of making a difference when nobody actually sees your changes and they behave the same attitude and having the same thoughts.

I did.
perhaps you didn't know.
Do you know when to support or advise when times come?
Perhaps you didn't know.
3 things happen in a day. I was having the worse feeling ever but look what you have done to me. Thanks for double up my sadness.

Today i cried when i need, i laugh when i want. It's cool to have Debbie cheering me up like a clown. Thank you for the PJ shirt when I'm tearing. You'll see me feeling better gagaga i mean later. :)

Why am i facing all these alone again. Can't you be there for at least once when i need you. Or i should back to reality and starting to get used to the life before you exist?

Excuse or what, I am feeling tired and ill. You should know.
等一个人多么孤单 我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐.

smile hee. :)

Yellow! darling darling sekalian. :)

Life's back to normal like nobody's business and HEY i slept at 10pm everyday now because everybody are telling me that they sat in front of their desk but things just don't go into their mind that's why i so not willing to become one of them therefore i went to bed early lorrr instead of awaking full stop.

A little bit updates of my life.

:- This is broga again and with humans i not familiar again.
I don't know 11 of them out of 12. This is not the saddest part yet. Let me tell you, we reached the peak early before sunrise but the clouds too naughty and blocked it all so i didn't get to see the orangy egg yolk :( -:

:- Classmate Faizah's Birthday party on last Saturday GAGAGA. -:

:- random shot. -:

I hate the school so much now because they ban my twilight saga wtf.
Anyhow this is something which i really want to tell nyek nyek.
After whole day activities and tuition, i got a surprise once i reached home. Well it's damn refreshing you know when something extraordinary happens in your ordinary life once awhile nyek nyek. I got this envelope with my name on it and when i opened it i saw a very exquisite handmade CD's cover and a written memo. It's from Kelvin! Basically is a CD filled with yiruma piano collection. I remember i just mentioned once in msn that i wish to have this you know. So touching wtf!

:- This is the cover and my CD player beside my bed nyek nyek.
Look the memo with the word 'surprise?' GAGGAA yes i AM. -:

:- And this is obviously me holding it and act like kissing it wtf HAHAHA.
To show you that I'm super glad receiving this! -:

Thank you once again Kelv!
It's really wonderful to have you in my life as BFF! :)

upbeat during hard times

like OMG OMG OMG we are in form 5 now.

Stress is coming officially. I pray for still standing strong even though facing giants. Resolutions? Uhh, no. Not even one yet. GAGAGA. Still hoping some improvements in results. Gonna stalk all genius for studies. GAGAGA.

p/s

Miss yune, you gotta stay strong too.
Loves. :)

summaries year 2009.

This gonna be the starter of this post because who cares lah this is my blog.

Look this is something popped into my mind when i really felt empty and i gonna welcome year 2010 into my life and say bye-bye to year 2009. T___T
I really afraid as the time passes on..
Looked back what I've done it might be very fun but what i felt it's seriously super empty deep inside me.. T___T

:- As the very first and last Qi Yuan's big gathering in this year. I definitely miss all of you and i don't wanna lost contact when there's not even one camp in this year. :(


:- I never really knew you,you were just another friend , But when i got to know you, I let my heart unbend. I know i shouldn't ask for more. :) -:


:- And then followed by heading to PD visiting the joyful sifu and went to beach with darlie and 13 without darling and trace, therefore i acted emo. :(


-: Cousins aunties uncles from mother's side. A very nice and sweet family that cannot be denied. Cousins from England and aunties from Kuantan! Johor's aunty is a little bit far anyway...:) -:


:- It's worth to woke up at 4am and get everything well prepared and get to see their achievement and made seniors dropped tears of happiness.. -:


:- Went MV celebrated Miss Chien's Birthday with one big gang from different groups. You was blessed seriously..I envy you very much you might not know :)


:- This was a great experience hiking ngan humans i not familiar with except darlie, 3 days before he left Msia to UK. Asthma visited during hiking but it's worth because i get to reach the third peak and get to meet Andrew! *blush* -:


:- By chance we practiced hard for only less than 2 weeks time to perform on stage for our KSTU Area dinner..A little changes among friendship that time and i hope it'll only strengthens us in the future.-:


:- By choice we gathered and get to know each other better and i really hope our friendship can last long..I heart luluians! -:


:- Went Jog For Hope and run 6km for this charity donations and did i mentioned i really love the Tees. :) And i love spending time with you deeeer.


:- Look how sweet were they wrote down my name on the sand and asking me to Rest In Peace when my birthday was just around the corner.. =__=
Celebrated my early Birthday on 15th Aug kat PD with luluians, without Sua who was having fever. :( -:


:- I swear this is the first and last time i got drunk and vomited in front of officers on 31st August! owh-kay, i hate carlsberg ewww. My very impressive 16's life started. -:


:- I celebrated moon cake festival together with many st johns members at our new HQ, Desa. And only i knew they can be as silly as possible once they are not in uniforms. teehee -:


:- As my skin got tanner after K.Selangor day trip to try the new bought DSLR. of hers. I can still remember how hard was i struggling and then Trace brought me out stopping me from emo-ing, thank you lots! -:


:- I don't remember how long we never take for a family photo. And this the chance we took during my Brother Melt's 21st Birthday party. :) -:

-: Celebrated mummy's Birthday at Umaiya treated by Penny Gan. A very nice but expensive Japanese restaurant..Took lots artistic photo using DSLR. -:


:- My dear classmates! 8 of us visited uncle Lim during schooling day. My full attendance cert was given on that day somemore. HEHEH, A day we had lots of fun. -:


:- We finally get to find one day for family trip heading to Genting. Even though the time we spent are little, I appreciated lots! Not forgetting how i spent my night time in the hotel room alone with the Tv On, and deeeer's msg! -:


:- Went Malacca straight after the holidays started. Luluians and some close friends, this trip without lulu Chan who was having SPM too! Our trip never complete one wtf. -:


:-Spot me spot me! Celebrated Grandpa's Birthday..I love family photos wee.-:


:- Once in a life time attending such special wedding. My StJohn's area officer aka cousin sister which is like super far way get married on 061209. Sounds fun! -:


:- My dear luluians at HGH hall on wedding dinner. We planned to take photo outside the hall after the dinner finish but very unfortunately the 2 lulu standing behind us got drunk and this is the only photo of us for that night. T___T -:


:- Followed by SONshine Youth camp 2009, learnt and had so much fun and get to know so many cute and friendly peoples! -:


:- aww this is us luluians again went Look Out Point for dinner the day after my camp. Had traffic jam for freaking one and a half hours. After dinner, we went KLCC for only 15 minutes took photos and then went home HAHAH. That's a great night. -:

Stories behind are too long to talk..and YES i am too lazy.
I miss so many humans in my life right now that i cannot even list it down. Headache and chest pain visiting me constantly now and i hope my determination is strong enough and nothing gonna confused me again and again once I've done the decision.
Sometimes i hope i can be stubborn for at least once.
oh hell, you should know I'm lying if i said i can't wait for the school to reopen.

Short and Sweet.

Firstly,
Beautiful Christmas is finally coming very soooon..*cheers*

Peoples! I had a great experience ever. I joined Michelle's Church for caroling on Saturday and it was definitely fun even i was not in a great mode due the day before. But it's cool to visit houses and lighting up candles and stand close with everyone and sing.

19th was a good day perhaps. I didn't get to support Yeesin's Finals on live competition and i didn't choose to go Raymond Lam's concert with 2 FREE tickets at Genting. I chose heading to meet SONshiners and share the joy of happiness together with them and knowing the great wonders of Christmas.

In peace.

It's 20th today, ILY. ♥

sweetheart.

Luluians,

Here we are. ♥

SONshine camp'09

As a new comer of this great family..I felt welcomed by so many of them seriously. Everyone is so friendly and i felt a little bit nervous. I got to say this was my first camp ever. FIRST as in not either Qiyuan's or StJohn's. I got to remind myself they are not first aider and there's no super strict officers and rules to follow. I just have to enjoy myself and join them together and have fun! I just cant get used to it at the very first moment peoples! I am excited anyway..

The first person i met after we reached Mich's church, Grace Chai. She is really pretty! She drove us all the way to Bentong and we had our early lunch at 1130am because there's no lunch provided at the campsite. Heading to Dusun Eco Resort, the place we're having lots of fun and joys.

:- Journey heading to destination, Su Ann made me wear this..That's Mich!HAHA. -:

After we registered, number of 4, each one of us took bed sheet and pillow case and checked in to our room. I never been to a camp that beds is provided, so it's not bad after all BUT I got to tell you the pillow case is damn smelly and none of us can really stand it. So we just put aside the pillow case and started to put on bed sheet. I applied what i learnt from Home Nursing course okay..teehee. I slept without pillow for 2 days,homesick. :(

:- This is Su Ann, squatting in front of our room. This so called resort is a little bit disappointing anyway..>___< -:

We had obstacle course straight right after the orientation. Orientation mostly like separated into groups and come out with something like group's name and logo. So 4 of us was in this group named SWORD.

:- Before orientation -:

Obstacle course basically is mostly set up by using ropes. It's not hard yet challenging with the help of number of them. Most impressive task was to achieve balance with standing on a rope and hand in hand with your partner walked from one side to other end. I did this with Su Ann and we did it very well out of so many partners who actually felt from the rope!

And sessions went on after we took dinner and the day 2's morning. We had our games somehow like station by station and we got the 2nd place only differ few minutes from the champion!

:- My Sword team after the games. -:

:- Girls from the team exclude the orange colour one HAHAHA -:

:- BBQ's dinner that night. Random shot taken by Su Ann tu. Everyone looks tired after the sports. -:

And the third day.
I am so happy because i miss home so much even though just 3 days and i'm going home today! yet i felt so heavy because i just started get to know each one of them, and it's time for me to say BYE BYE especially after the water rafting! Getting wet was definitely not in my plan, but ended up Mich pulled me with her and we went inside the super cooling pond/river/whatever lah.. And i remember i went water rafting once in ICC, but that raft was provided already so this also a new experience that building the raft on yourself.

:- Before getting myself wet with Melissa. -:


:- Building the raft-:

:- As you can see our raft was not very stable HAHAHA -:

:- Looks like he is walking on the water! This is Chuah jumping in when photographer counted and everyone was ready to take a photo. -:


:- Nah, wet. -:

I miss i miss i miss i miss ALL of them already. T___T

:- My team with the soldiers hehehe. -:

:- Girls with Jamie! -:


:- I don't remember how freaking long time i never peace. -:

Definitely joining them for caroling this Saturday. I hope we can take more photos!
Till then! Beilynn lazy awww.

Snowy December

Hello :)

And i shouldn't be so emo on the very early of December as many of them worry about me..So no worries! I will be happy and smile always HAHAHA even though it's a little bit tough..for me but! I promised i will try.
And i really pray there's nothing gonna ruin my Happy Christmas. Please?

:- That day video call darling Mei Fang just to make jealousy BAHAHAH. -:




:- And spot this, super dramatic photo. Ignore the middle one. -:

:- And only i realized how much i miss ICC. -:

:- If i forgot to tell you, ILY dear, always. ♥ -:

愛情說謊

它帶你來　騙我說渴望的有可能有希望

You know.

You shouldn't have told me, and i am afraid i can't afford disappointment anymore as time passes on..
It's hurt and i know you don't do it on purpose as well as you wouldn't know incident happen and you have to wake me up from dreams you gave.
yet i do believe you have the ability to stop yourself from giving me hopes and colorful imagination space to let me know how happy am i going to be.
Oh please do not promise anything when you even find so hard to make me smile.

ily,♥

Memoirs of us ♥ Malacca'09 ♥

As all the hotels and resorts got fully booked.. and we were planning this trip separately from Penang to KL..and only able to reserve 3 rooms when we called the forth hotels..
Thanks god We still managed to make it to this trip, which it's one of the trip in my list bahaha.

We departure at 9am in the morning, and 2 hours is needed for the journey. 5 of us and the couple only came right after 6pm. Guess what were we do during that freaking 6 hours plus while waiting them?
We went jonker street and have a walk, and buahaha i got the first Malacca souvenir from Ah Sua right away. It's actually because 3 for RM10 stuff and let my so called souvenir be the third. And i can't really enjoy it much due to my just-straightened-long-hair and the boiling-egg-sun..We went Chendol and it's super cooling! I apologise okay if my black/no-emotion's face shown again...it's really hot mar..

None of us can stand the weather so we decided to check-in the hotel first and have a nice bath..and the human who same room with me lying there deadly so i decided to ding-dong MF's room and kick out sys tu and have girl's talk.. I enjoyed the moment darling! :)
And we ding-dong Ah Sua's room since he is alone and we have nothing else to do. Guess what we did in his room! We watched the movie 'Orphan'. I hate horror film i tell you stupid freaky little girl inside there i hate you so much.

:- By using his HP because i didn't bring mine along before pressing his ding-dong. -:

And as the time passed, the couple reached very finally. We went scenic spots one by one enjoyed happily and this the first destination.

-:- eye on Malaysia -:-

And you know my gastric really tortured me for 2 freaking days?Oh gosh it's not my willingness to squat on the street and feeling better is the only reason for me to do so without caring my image even though i had left none.

-: night view water cruise -:

:- So did i mention this is the late comers couple. -:

:- I never get to have a chance to sit on this bek-chek. T___T -:

The mad-est thing i have ever done.
We queued up for freaking one and a half hours for supper and my tortured gastric followed too. T___T I don't remember how freaking hot and not windy there and i super black face I KNOW but who cares because i was HAVING GASTRIC!

:- Gonna remember this forever because they had this when i was having hard time fighting with my stomach wuwuwu. -:

I was the first person rushing in the bathroom and showered happily when we stepped in our hotel room. I love the hot water so much and there's no reason for MML complaining the water is too hot..ah-huh, what she make of?

I can still remember the cartoon-laughing-voice from Lulu Hor before i felt asleep. I was just thought to interrupt their conversation after 2 of them were done bathing and when i opened my eyes i saw lights from the window and my phone showing 8am in the morning. I slept without waking up in the middle of the night! I was blessed!

And this is the next morning as we were ready to check out..

:- And i am HOT buahha! -:

:- Owh you just failed to cause jealousy lahh. :) -:

:- Inside the Dataran Pahlawan :-

:- The beach and the peoples. -:

Even thought we left quite early but i only reached home at 12am midnight.. We went PD after we left Malacca wanted to catch the sunset yet, I am not gonna tell you that i went PD beach for three freaking times on this year, and i NEVER get to catch the sunset! It was very pitiful okay..T___T You don't understand my feelings.. T___T yet I enjoyed night at the beach teehee. :)

I praised if you gotta the patience to read till here. =P

teehee.

My long hair is back dah... :)

I have too much things to share yet i don't know where to begin. My mood went up and down and up and down and up and down yeah because too much things to settle recently. Oh and i just came back from Malacca and i super love the trip even though the sun seriously macam boiling egg and my freaking-just-straightened-hair annoyed me alotsss. T___T
Wait sabar-ly if you are able to visit my blog to check it out the trip because Beilynn is too lazy to update and the photos from dear Mei Fang haven't reach me yet teehee.

I went book fair with Miss Yune on Tuesday and i didn't get to see her for freaking one month already! I love and enjoyed the girl's talk very much teehee. *i tell you, guys are all idiot buahhaa* And i know she only working there on weekends meaning i can paktoh at 1 Utama from Monday to Friday HAHHAHA so happy right. =___=
And i went crazy and a little bit frustrated for that evening and on Wednesday morning. Yeah it's all done when i spent my lunch time with the love, and my longtime-missing-darling at night. Teehee. <3

blueee

dear,

Why are you not here with me when you are needed most...

And we're getting closer. ♥ Genting'09 ♥

Thanks God our outing went very smoothly..isn't?

So today's supposed to be a school day but unfortunately we did skipped school and went for a short day-trip. It's very sunny in the morning when we reached the Kepong KTM and we prayed very hard for a not raining day before we murdered all the Outdoor theme park's game. We were in a rush when we know our bus at 8am going to drive off.

And..Yeah, the bus drove away without waiting the 8 of US. I wonder since when Malaysian so punctual ah-huh. In the shoe of having no other choice, Each of us paid 20 bucks and we took 2 taxi to reach the cable car station. It was like my first time to sit for a cab for a such long journey. (Is far enough for me.) The taxi is clean and the driver was very friendly. I know he's trying to warm up the situation with making lots of jokes you know..but it ends up worse. I sat beside him and wanted to ask him to shut up but it's too rude to do so and he's quite a nice man lahh over all. :)

see?She can even sleep in peace HAHA.

once in my life time seeing this high rate

And we reached the station very safely. It's very excited because my last time for cable car was 10 years ago wtf. And there's no nice view like i thought but i pretty afraid of the height when i looked down from the cable car. It's freaking high weyyy. I don't remember i have this phobia also.

Before we entered

i told you! It's very sunny.

And the first thing we do after we reached was..rushing in the KFC.Shan and Qian enjoyed very happily with their breakfast while the others can't wait and hoping they will just swallow without chewing bahaha which is so impossible. We waited very patiently and i started to feel the distance between theme park and Genting was so looooong while we were walking.. I am just so, can't wait~!

Finally we can smell the fresh air of Outdoor's theme park! And we took some photo with this two big thingy..

Enthusiastic Tabby

And what if it's a guy inside there? *eww*

It's still very sunny day and i thanks god for that. We then queued up for the first game. The queue wasn't long if it's compared to weekends with full of secondary school's students and some foreign people. To kill time and obviously this is what we will do..

Spot the fish.

and Shan photo penceroboh!


siao kia Qian :)

And we had our lunch at 1pm after the fun kart! It's cool to drive you know HAHA and it's not hard to control the car by using one hand what...haha! Indoor- after we had our lunch at McD (it's really fattening you know i ate Mc Chicken set plus one large cheesy wedges oh god), Shan and Qian went to the rock climbing game which cost RM4 per game. Once you drop to the mattress its counted game over. Oh gosh. You just need to spent RM4 and you can try it without any basic foundation and hello Kelvin Tan why we spent that freaking 4 HOURS ROCK CLIMBING COURSE last time eh?

Thanks god i am naturally in darker skin wtf, because Shan and KY got sunburn and very sorry for waiting us to finish up the race teehee. It's very nice to enjoy the time with them even though they keep singing the song which i never heard before, and i dunno when's the rain came and the time reminded us it's time to leave. The rain come so sudden and we got stucked. I didn't get to play the what-ever-spiderman game because all of them got tired wtf. So we just walked and spent our last little time at there and took some photos as memories. It's cool and super windy after the rain. And it's the only chance to let us put on out jackets you know! Gosh the weather nowadays, we never wear a jacket until the rain come.

photo ini berkualiti, don't you think so?


<3>

so we pointed there, the Genting logo.

And we acted emo because we're leaving!

We left at 530pm to catch up our bus which's leaving at 630pm. We were pretty rushing because none of us are going to spent another 20 bucks right? After all it's a very worth trip! Oh did i mention that day my school was giving out full attendance's cert? Thanks a lot to darling Mei Fang for helping me for that freaking cert. Who asked Beilynn is like so freaking smart and chose that particular day to skip school wtf. Anyhow, I have done my so called task for year 2009. I got full attendance okay. :)

And i hope you will be smiling from your heart when you read this post because you should be happy for me as i found them as my true friends.

And very sorry my blog was in private mode for the last few days. I just need some time to think whether can i share what's truly deep inside me now with all of you.
So i decided to make it back to normal and i hope you can just read and forget about it and DO NOT GOSSIPS. :)

Because you worth it.

The road not taken LOL.

And today, a meaningful day out of the year.

I try so hard to set my mind free HAHA and start thinking am i doing the right thing, performing the right options..and no, there's no answer for that. Opinions and advices come, but they failed to enter my mind. I told myself no regrets. But see what's these all about that running through my mind? Look who's the one that are not willing to accept the fact, look who's the one that struggling so hard here.

JESUS

And i am very clear that there's no return after I've decided this. It's not that i cannot, It's the willingness that matters. It's not easy lor seriously as the feelings gone deeper and deeper. And it's definitely neither because of loneliness nor i am a teenager that happens to be falling in love now. And OH PLEASE can i just ditch away the fcuking principle of my own that set by myself? Beilynn you idiot lahh.

Because you worth it, dear.

I want someone to listen.

Finals ended, meaning holidays is coming soon and also meaning Christmas is coming soon also meaning year 2010 is coming soon also meaning Form 5's life is coming soon also meaning Trial is coming soon also meaning freaking SPM is coming soon and also meaning bnyk bnyk stress is coming to me now wtf.

Yes i was having a hard time after the Chemistry paper. But i especially thanks to some random friends of mine that really help me freaking lots through out the whole October. They really freakingly touch my heart sometimes and i really really glad to have them in my Form 4's life. I knew it..I knew..they are my true friends that i was searching for so freaking long.

Credits to the very positive thinking X.Qian that save me from finals that gonna ruin my life. You might not know that i am very glad to have a siao kia fren like you. :)
And to P.Xing and Y.shan this argue-non-stop-couple, teaching me add math with the extraordianary patience in both of you, and exactly make my life more colourful because is very sweet to see P.xing's smile and it's super nice to bully Y.shan. *evil grin*
And to Michelle Chen! The buddy fighting the finals war with me for that freaking 3 weeks and my inbox totally full of your Gahyao-ish's messages. I love you dear! *hugs hugs*

Before i sit in front of my PC today, i got lots of things running through my mind that i wanna talk about it. But now, i got stucked.
I am still wondering, whether..whether..Yeah, whether are you my true friend. Okay this may hurt you..
You know, i myself is the one that very insecure and sensitive person, maybe you might not know. But..i am. Dear, yes i AM. I cannot stand the pressure i having..anymore when i be with you, I cannot stop thinking about the problem we are facing now that never have a solutions. I cannot stand the silence between you and me ALL the time. I don't want this to happen so much but it DID, now. I do not know how to face you yeah instead...I rather don't talk to you the whole day and guess what? It makes me feel so much better. We are very very very different people that cannot stand too close to each other.. No matter how hard i pretend and endure..i knew this very long ago.

Okay emo finish. I am gonna start dating.

Finals break.

I miss this budak and, i miss those day.

I gained weight, a lot. Like usual lah okay and I seriously have to start dieting from now. Said is always easier than done. I think i can only manage to determine for 2 days. Teehee. I know i did very well for chemistry, just clap and laugh like an idiot alright. I am so gonna pray that i will not be emo after i get my reports card with full of red marks. Yes, not praying for results, but the card. I am so gonna look beyond imperfections as she said quoted by GBL.

Thanks god my insomnia didn't get worse and i sleep pretty well for the last few days. It's super not good for health lahh everyday stressing like this. 2 more freaking weeks and come come let's ponteng together buahaha. Oh, PJK test sucks lahh.

I am so looking forward to Christmas now buahaha influenced by Miss Chien tu. I know it's still freaking damn far away but who cares la we were just day dreaming HEHE! I wanna go Genting for fireworks because i don't want to see the handmade fireworks again by DarLing at Puncak Templer for year 2009. ELO, can i stay there until new year eve ah? :D

Tomorrow,17th of Oct which is my Brother's 21st Bday party and also meaning i will see lots of aunties and kepochi gather around SIGH. Let's see how many aunties will be telling me the "you are fat' statement and then i will tell you after i count the number.

By the way, Mr.Loh makan vinegar because of his return.
Welcome back, My Darlie. :)

“第一次看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切”

Persistence?

I pay you to kill me.

Deal?

It's over man, let her go.